-Part 2- .dining out.
-Part 2- .dining out.
reach home liao i one word oso nv say. jus went to change my clothes. den after went out with family le. in de car. hais. my mum jus scold n scold n scold. tmd. hated her so entirely much. no one can understand how much hatred i have for her. i wun care even if she occasionally treats me gud. or even concern for me. but. i tink she's too much. nv sparing a tot for mine feelings. her biasedness is jus so obviously der. no matter wat i argue. she always tink she's rite. de biggest. hur. well. ya maybe ya rite. biggest in terms of sizes compared to me ba. sarcastic i may be. unfilial i may be. but if ever u had treated me better with less biasedness. i will surely respect u de way i respect grandma. it has everything got to do with u for my attitude towards u. dun deny dat.
u always blamed all tinks on my frens. tMd. u claimed to noe wat im tinking abt all. nv cared for a proper explanation. u put de blame on me when it's urs. wat a mum.
forget abt it.
de injury i suffer frm de dance. hais. de scratches on my calf. still hurts. left a mark der. felt so sore n pain lo. hais. =x
at der. i realised it was those typee of seven lunar month dinner whereby there's biding of items. gosh. so noisy lo. i hate such dinners.
later ns msg me asking to go out to chat. hais. how i wish i can. i rather go out den stay with my family in an environment so chaotic rite der eating dinner. dat's so terrible. hais. had a short chat n den i went completely sianz le. so damn boring der lo. nth to do nth to see. de food so terrible lo. den i accidentally ate pork. eeks. de smells is horrid. so terrible. i jus vomitted all out lo. rinse my mouth with plenty water to rid it of de smell. hated pork. so gross to eat pork.
reach home le. had a bath. felt quite refreshed. but tired at de same time. went online n chatted with sze n weijie n jingjie. feeling so tired le. cant withstand any longer. too tired le. gotta slp. zZz nites.

-Part 1- .happy trch day.
-Part 1- .happy trch day.
=) today morning we had de dance dat de sLs had choreographed for de aces day. it wasn't reali a successful one. well. in my opionion thou. hmm. later on we had lessons. de first 2 was mrs tan's maths lesson. it was reali nice of her not to conduct any lessons. so well. we had joy n fun during de 3 periods of lessons.
today's qianling's bday too! well. happy bday to u wor! =D stay pretty wor. n wish u everlasting happiness with my kor. kekes. =) smiles.
later on it was recess time. i was reali nervous lo. =x cant reali describe eaxactly how i felt. den yun cass qian they all wished me all de best n tried calming me down a little. but it does no help =x. shimin oso came to wish me. reali gan chiong. kekes. but still glad to have their gud luck wishes. =) jingjie oso msg me gud luck.
after dat. i met up with my dancers. n we went to change into our clothes n put on our accessories. all of us were reali into jitters. den after changing we went behind de backstage to await our performance. den me n isa kept practising our speech. my speech was like so long. piangz. n hard to memorise de. =x den later our de candles was like keep falling out of de plastic cup bottoms. den in de end we decided to do de dance with jus holding on to de candles. i was like touched by all of dem. being so willing to sacrifice for de dance. cos if we r to hold de candles without de plastic cup bottoms. de wax will surely drip onto our hands. n dat certainly hurts. =) i was so glad we have dat jing shen. before long, it was our turn to perform. me n isa stepped out to deliver our speech. tink i was horrid. i was like toking rubbish. pronounciation so wrong. =x. almost everything i said was like so weird.
den after dat speech me n isa rushed to de back to our position. i tripped n fell over de black speaker along de way lo. cos de stage too dark n de speaker was BLACK. dat's y it blends in well. piangz. den was like so pain lo. jus have to ren. gosh. den i was holding de candles with trembling hands. =x. not nervous is my leg pain ar. piangz. den music started n we danced. de coodination quite horrid in de beginning. but it got better when all de dancers got into de mood of dancing. =) we coodinated well n nicely. dat's so great. one bad tink was dat. my skirt. gosh. it jumped up everytime i jump. =x. den beli paiseh lo. i was like dancing while pulling onto my skirt. so terrible. i din at all do my best. sad case. i wonder if any audience under de stage saw dat. gosh. so so paiseh. almost wanted to purposely nv do steps so as to pull my skirt. but i guess dat will look even weirder. =x.
mrs lee was like smiling iniatially. but it seems dat she gave a glum face when she saw our skirts. i presume ba. not dat certain. should have gotten a tighter n longer skirt. =x hmm. when de dance was complete. i felt so relieved. we den moved out of de backstage n enter de hall to watch de rest of de performance. de cinderella skit was so boring. reali boring lo. worst cinderella play i ever watched. spoilt de nice n wonderful story of cinderella. =x
den i saw sze. she was so sick-looking lo. she reali beli gud. in spite of her poor health she still came to support us. =) later on had dat sL election. followed by a special performance by de trch. it was an act on xinmin idol. mrs lee was supposedly florence, but she was like nv tok at all. she doesn't seem to noe wat to say or act. lousy. =p mr lim was gud. his jokes r funny. kekes. of all de performance i enjoyed mr chee's. haas. he rapped lemon tree lo. funny sia. =) after dat de trch sang top of de world. well. dat was nice n great.
=) saw leng yeow. he came n gave sweets to me. thanks loads kor. =) kekes. beli xiang nian u. sorii dat din tok much to u.
later on i oso saw my daddy kendrick, jisheng nanshun they all. wa. grow up more mature looking le. kekes. den my daddy wanted me to call him ar-pa. haas. so i call him lo. gees. miss seeing him. =) daddy. must takecare wor. nu-er will xiang u.
daddy n nanshun msg me. haas. they say i dance not bad leh. =) 1st time kana praised by dem. haas. but i still tink i din dance well. =x
den later yun asked me to join dem later for celebrating qian's bday. so i went lo. i was like feelign so disappointed dat i cant join dem further. as i gotta go to meet up with kaiyi n sze.
den when meet up with they 2 le. we went kovan eat kfc n later on take pic. =) afte dat we den take a bus to old xinmin bball court der play.
we played bball with many lo. got me. sze. kaiyi. stella. vivian. jasmine. vanessa. kevin. corina. in which later on jingjie n ck came to join us. den we played matches. i teamed with sze n ck agst jingjie kaiyi n one of jingjie's fren. lost in de first round. cos of me. =x. i was so lousy. 10 balls i guess i oni can shoot in 3 balls or even less lo. dunoe y dat day jus cant get de ball into de hoop. so fed up. den my team is like oni sze n ck play like dat. moreover i got privilege de lo. once i hold de ball no one can take it away frm me le. i can break any rule or wat de. haas. so da pai hor. but is bcos i no skill ma. too lousy le. even if they rang me i oso cant win. sumore i shoot de ball is jus underneath de rim lo. =x gosh. no one will wan play with me anymore le lo. haas. play with me sure no patience liao. 2nd round we won. =) hooray to sze n ck. not me. =p
den next i teamed up with corina kaiyi sze n ck agst weilun tongzhi n jas. thou weilun so tall n can easily take de ball away. but hor our team won leh. =) cheerios to my team. den later me sze n jingjie go buy drinks.
went bak to de court n kaiyi they all left to go kayi's condo der play pool. oni me jas n sze din go. we continue play bball lo. tis time i team with ck n jas agst sze n jingjie. forget de score le. kekes tink my team won. but is cos of jas n ck oso. not me =x. haas. i play bball is like go der stand n watch oni lo. =x
after dat ck n jingjie they play match agst their own frens den sze n jas n me we sit down watch. too tired n sianz le. sze got gastric. kelian. hais. sumore she so sick lo. u better takecare of urself.
later on we 3 went to kaiyi's condo der to play pool. lols. nv play b4. den i tried to learn. haas. but i tink de stick beli heavy lo. den sze help to correct my hand grip n posture n all. lols. st time she dare to touch me. lols. or not she usually sure face red red de. kekes. but i now den noe de reason y she does all these. lols. =p funny sia she. den got once hor. de white ball was so far. far until i have to lie on de table. wa! was like so xinku. n dumb looking! =x. kekes. i kept luffing lo.
after dat we took pictures n pictures. using jas' camera. quite fun thou. den my dad called me n scolded me. pig! he say he cum n pick me up go eat dinner de lo. he ownself forget cum n scold me. tmd. den sze pei me take bus 325 go home. den she changed bus to reach home lo.

u ar..
u ar..
..weijie beli qian bian. FORCED me to write his name under de speech. give him face ba le. =pPp
"We will certainly remember your full-fledged commitment in teaching us and would like to express our heartfelt gratitude and well-wishes to all teachers on this special day esp weijie. Last but not least, I, on the behalf of the dance team, will like to wish all teachers a happy teacher's day! So, sit back, relax and enjoy our dance."
one itnk to say abt him. "childish!" =PpP

nervous..
nervous..
gosh. cant blive it. 13 more hours to performing. hais. so nervous now. having a super duper headache rite now. diary ar. so gan chiong now. tml teacher's day celebration le. gotta perform a dance. dunoe if it will be critisize not. =X. scary leh. hope jas vian isa n stella will jiayou tml. =) i must oso. jus scare i dance too vigorously dat my skirt will keep jumping up. it's aleli so short if jump up sumore. sure jialat. plus me n isa saying a speech together. more gan chiong. later mrs lee critisize on my speaking. =x diary. i read u my speech. kekes. jus for practising. er-hem.
"We will certainly remember your full-fledged commitment in teaching us and would like to express our heartfelt gratitude and well-wishes to all teachers on this special day. Last but not least, I, on the behalf of the dance team, will like to wish all teachers a happy teacher's day! So, sit back, relax and enjoy our dance."
kekes. all thanks to aaron who had help to edit my speech. thanks a great deal. =) my headache is getting worse. tink i gotta slp. takecare everyone. dancers. tml must jiayou! =)

nervous..
nervous..
gosh. cant blive it. 13 more hours to performing. hais. so nervous now. having a super duper headache rite now. diary ar. so gan chiong now. tml teacher's day celebration le. gotta perform a dance. dunoe if it will be critisize not. =X. scary leh. hope jas vian isa n stella will jiayou tml. =) i must oso. jus scare i dance too vigorously dat my skirt will keep jumping up. it's aleli so short if jump up sumore. sure jialat. plus me n isa saying a speech together. more gan chiong. later mrs lee critisize on my speaking. =x diary. i read u my speech. kekes. jus for practising. er-hem.
"We will certainly remember your full-fledged commitment in teaching us and would like to express our heartfelt gratitude and well-wishes to all teachers on this special day. Last but not least, I, on the behalf of the dance team, will like to wish all teachers a happy teacher's day! So, sit back, relax and enjoy our dance."
all thanks to aaron who had help to edit my speech. thanx loads wor! =) kekes. reali thanks. nites everyone. dancers jiayou tml. always rmb to smile wor. =) we can do it de. as long as our skirts dun fly. =p slp tites. zzZ

eeKs!
eeKs!
gosh. feel disgusted with myself. so gross. i killed 2 insects lo. cos i studying geog. den these 3 insect keep flying n landed beside me. den i accidentally killed dem. felt so gross out. eeKs. gotta study my geog. quite slow in my studying. nidda jiayou. feeling de butterflies in my stomach le. *scared* dun wan fail my geog anymore. worked so hard for it. hais. my amtahs too. wish me all de best diary. =) i had to pluck enuff courage to face de papers. papers in which i had failed frm time to time. i guess if i fail these 2 subjects once more, i doubt i can pick myself up anymore.=x
jas. must cheerios wor. miss ya. yea. jas finally smiles. i mean utter a "hahas". =) glad abt it.
tml got trch day rehearsal. feeling de jitters. hais.
byes diary. muaks.

=x
=x
i felt so empty inside me. a feeling of nothing in me. my heart seems to have disappeared. it seems to have fallen deep inside. i dunoe wat to say. nor react. have i over-react? wat's de meaning behind my reaction. i searched for an ans but der's no reply. i broke into tears. suddenly. i was shock myself too. why had i taken it so hard upon me? izit cos it has involved `? perhaps. jus perhaps. dat might explains my anxiety den. at least an explanation for me. i felt weird all over. a distinctive bad feeling had developed in within me. growing tronger as de hours ticked by. wat's worse has been lying ahead of me? hais. i dun wish to find out anymore. i hate liars. esp if it's my frens. hais. u shouldnt have even mention it to me at all. u got me more n more worried each day. de feeling is so overwhelming. so frustrating. i had enuff. i dun wan tok abt it anymore.

me today?
me today?
today tmd. felt so uncomfortable in de morning. dunoe y. jus feeling so queasy n all. had a beli strong intuition dat sumtink bad or no gud will happen. been haunting me since last nites. hais. stepped out of de hse to realise im runnign quite late for sch. no choice. gotta take a taxi. de uncle was friendly. he's nice. anyway. i reach sch jus in de nick of time. everyone was like walking slowly to de exams hall. i jus rushed upstairs to put my bag. den mrs lee frm de stage der saw me upstairs n spoke thru de mike "janice why are u still der" piangz. her words make me even frantic. hais. i hurriedly rush down followed by siyong n another guy. we reach de hall together. mind you. TOGETHER! den mrs lee spoke thru de mike yet again. "janice i will deduct 5 marks from ur exams. 5 from each paper." kaos. tMD. for no reason. she jus pick on me oni. 3 of us walk in n she oni say me. wat wrong have i done. i wasn't late. tmd. francine told me she was worried dat it might affect my exam. well it did. i took abt 30 min to tink. not tink abt my compo story. but i dunoe wat am i tinking. i tried to focus but i jus couldn't. hais. in de end i spent so much time on my guided writing. n left with oni 45 min to do with my compo. i was like reali frantic when 10 min was left n i was oni at my 2nd paragraph or so. no choice. i rushed thru my compo. hais. in de end i couldn't make out any story at all. my compo. a total failure. a complete piece of rubbish. it does't even fit to be handed up. it ought to be thrown away. dat's so terrible. i reali felt sad. damn disappointed. but i din wish to show it out. dun wan it to affect my paper 2. nor will i wan dat pig of a mrs lee to mock at me. freak her. she's hell. my preliums. i felt as if i've jus flop my eng paper. reali terrible. i reali wan to get gud results. reali wanted. hais. but der doesnt seems to be any driving force for me. nevertheless. i had tried my best.
seems dat i hadn't even had a word with yun n cass today. hais. de other day. someone plainly commented. y ur frens always ps u de. well. got me into real tinking ever since.
got de skirts frm sijie qian n char. char's was a bit too short. while de other 2 is alrite. jus afraid de dancers cant wear dem. hope de dance peformance on trch's day will go on well. hope nth will crop up. n hopefully. i dream i wish i hope. dat we will dance nicely n not forget any actions!. i noe we can do it. diary. must wish me all de best kkie?.

hais..
hais..
hais. now chatting with weijie to pass my time. it's terrible. i feel as if there's sumtink heavy weighing me down. not dat chatting with him makes me feel dat. jus dat...........-_-"
jas tml going tournament. hais. felt bad dat i din go support her. but i having chem lessons. den cant make it. hais. feel like supporting her. cos vian they all nv go oso bcos of de sjab flag day. so sad. tink she's sadder. so sorii to jas. hope she will win de tournament. i blive u can do it. taekwondo is wat u're best at. i noe u can do it. im sure u can do it. must jiayou oki?
sze. dun get mad le. relac ba.
cass. yun. nth much to say actually. thou same class. seems dat we have lost touch for ages. it's like we r so distant. u dunoe how i am now. neither do i noe how ur are now. guess perhaps i din hang out with ur much. =) nvm. still regard ur as frens of cos. thanx buddies.
diary. have many tinks to say. but i dunoe how to express it out to u. hmm. hais. tink * is weird. treats me so indifferently. dun reali feel comfortable at all. * doesnt seems serious either. hais. dunoe wat to do with *. dun reali noe how to react. * jus 2 diff person in both ways. it's jus so mystifying. wonder wat * means. doesnt get it.now. hais. im getting sick of all these. why must tinks turn out to be so complicating. wish i could read other ppl minds. dat would certainly be a great skill to acquire. isn't it? hais.
tml eng exams. i reali hope i can get better marks. i wan score a1 for eng. i reali must jiayou.

=X
=X
din reali have a nice day. awful perhaps. dunoe oso. hais.
diary. hais. wat's wrong? i would reali like to ask. well. dunoe if im stressed up or wat so. maybe im jus imagining tinks n in a little world of my own. these days. i seems to be drifting away frm everyone. sort of. ppl may not feel it. but i can. hais. not dat i being more passive. but tinks aren't turning exactly positive for me to tink optimistically. it irks me when ppl are keeping secrets n tried to hint it off. dat's irritating. esp its sumtink i reali will wan to noe abt. but it irks me even further when ppl acted as if they understand me when they dun. de worst is. when my fren whom i reckon are my best buddies left me out. hais. many tinks to say. wondering where im suppose to start frm. so terrible. so speechless rite now. i wish to spill out everytink i wan say. all i nid most. jus a caring hand on my shoulder who belongs to my best pals. sumone who's der for me to confide in. cry with. chat with. share with. but it's difficult.
not reali in a bad mood. jus feeling moody.

周杰伦 - 外婆
周杰伦 - 外婆
今天是外婆生日 我换上复古西装
载着外婆开着拉风的古董车兜兜兜风
车里放着她的最爱 找回属于是她的时代
往大稻埋码头开去把所有和外公的往事静静回忆
外婆她脸上的涟漪 美丽但藏不住压抑
推动了爱情只盼望亲情 弥补回应
大人们以为出门之前桌上放六百就算是孝敬
一天到晚拼了命 赚钱少了关怀有什么意义
外婆她的期待 慢慢变成无奈 大人们始终不明白
她要的是陪伴 而不是六百块 比你给的还简单
外婆的无奈 无法变成期待 只有爱才能够明白
走在淡水河衅 听着她的最爱 把温暖放回口袋

记得去年外婆的生日 表哥带我和外婆参加
她最最重视的颁奖典礼 结果却拿不到半个奖
不知该笑不笑 我对着镜头傻笑 只觉得自己可笑
我难过 却不是因为没有得奖而难过
我失落 是因为看到外婆失落而失落 大人们根本不能体会
表哥他的用心 好像随他们高兴就可以彻底的否定
否定 我的作品 决定在于心情
想坚持风格他们他们就觉得很欧颗
没惊喜没有改变 我已经听了三年
我告诉外婆 我没输 不需要改变
表哥说不要觉得可惜 这只是一场游戏
只要外婆觉得好听 那才是一种鼓励
外婆露出了笑容说她以我为荣
浅浅的笑容 就让我感到比得奖它还要光荣

tis jay chou song - wai po. is so cool n touching. de lyrics. oh my. so meaningful lo. jay's a sentimental guy. he's great. hmm. de lyrics reali beli nice. love it loads. =)

fever
fever
so xinku now. hais. now running a fever of 39.5. piangz. feel so giddy n uncomfortable. hais. should have heeded kaiyi's advice on eating medicine. so xin ku. hope it jus wun affect my studying mood later n my results tml. jiayou wor jan.

sze. dun so angry le k. sayang. guai guai. takecare wor.

Japan Valentine's Day
Japan Valentine's Day

in japan, during valentine's day, instead of de usual tradition of de guy giving de ger he likes, it will be de ger giving de guy she likes. de ger will den buy a type of chocolates (hon-mei) for her guy. de guy wun nid to give de ger anytink or wat so. it will be jus de ger giving presents dat day. but it doesn't end der.
one month later, on march de 14th, in which they called it de "white day", de guys will now return gifts to de gers who gave dem chocolates. der will be 4 type of gifts where each has a different meaning.

1) handkerchief - bye bye. meaning they can't be together.
2) mashmallow - friends. meaning they can only be friends.
3) biscuit - a bit like u. meaning dat the guy only has a little adoration for de ger.
4) sweets - be together. meaning de guy has accepted de ger. =) *happy ending*

kekes. so fun rite. n meaningful too.so special n unique. their way of celebrating valentine's day is so much more interesting than ours. =)

hmm. jingjie tell me got tis movie "a cinderella's story" cuming soon. feel like watching. hais. but got preliums n all. where got de time. sad. but i reali do wan to watch it. de story of cinderella has fantasized me ever since i read abt dat story. reali love dat story. den now got tis movie. i wan to watch! it's acted by hilary duff. gosh. i reali hope i can get to watch dat show. *praying*

jus now did comparison of de chap on education n health. had a tough time. wa. so chim lo. de health care in britain n spore is so different dat i cant possibly point out any similarities at all. n so much differences dat i dunoe which one to say. so luan. de more i study de more confused i am. hais. weijie. tink u better faster start studying. gosh. else i dunoe how u gonna complete ur studyign b4 de preliums. must jiayou wor. gud luck. hope all my frens n including me of cos will get fantastically high results for our preliums n olevels. must jiayou. takecare to all n me. smiles to all n me. muaks to all n me. n nites to all n me. =)

trch day rehearsal
trch day rehearsal
today went sch early with kaiyi so as to practise dance n try to tink steps for de f.i.r dance. only me n kaiyi oni. cos de rest having sjab activity except isa. as she say she wan to cum later. den corina join me n kaiyi. later when all de dancers (jas, isa, vian n stella) came. we practised de new steps n soon we went to de audition. after dat dance practice. we were dead beat n went to mac to have our lunch der. while corina went to work in yoshinoya. after mac i reach bak home. reali tired. preliums is cuming soon i have to study hard. luck to me, myself n I. all de best to all my frens! jiayou wor.! =) nites everyone!

updating...
updating...
haben been updating for quite a long while. cos no time plus no mood. quite a lot of tinks happen. recalling bak..

6th August 04 (Fri)
we had national day celebration. our class beli enthu lo. we went up to the front n danced n sang. we had so much fun. den later. many other classes joined in after we had done so. zuli did a fantastic job on leading de whole sch n bring de sch spirit up indeed. kekes. =) anyway. after dat celebration i had chem practical. but i skipped it cos i have to rush home to pack my bag for de noon trip to pulau ubin. so no choice. den i met up with isa yen n kaiyi. n they all went my hse. they stayed in my rm looking at all my bday gifts while i went to pack my bag. n i brought the slipper in which isa had bought for me to de camp. later on we went bak to sch together. meanwhile they oso keep suaning me abt sumtink. dat day. i went to pulau ubin. all sec 1s to 3s sjab members went. along with all trch-in-charge n oso mdm ayu, sock, marya, hawa, adrian, siyong, chuntat n me! but de trip der was so xinku. i was seasick. felt so terribly giddy. got a feeling wan to vomit but canot. reali horrid feeling. well. anyway de moment we reach der de rest had games but we sec 4s jus slack ard. nth much to do. so of cos. i went to slp. kekes. den sock disturbed my beauty slp cos it's time for bbQ. we had a nice time bbQing. me sock jas n vian. we bbQ together n saved food for each other too. so fun lo. den later in de nites. vian duno go where. sock was with guoqiang n roger they all. den me n jas we lie down on de beach. n we had a nice time looking at de stars n toking. n i saw 2 shooting stars! but i din make a wish. hmm. i made it after i saw. hope it will cum true still. so glad to see shooting stars. love stars. =) after dat i played poker cards with sum others. den later kelvin christopher shijie n jasmine pei me go choose bikes for de following day's cycling expedition. cos i duno how ride so i gotta try out. after dat i went bak bunk waited for jas to bath finish b4 we slp.

7th August 04 (Sat)
we had cycling. gosh. dat experience was so horrendous. i was in extreme team which consists of all de sec 4s n mdm ayu. i was like not reali confident in riding de bike lo. cos i dun quite noe how to cycle. but i tried my best. n i was like lagging so far bak behind my team-mates. quite pathetic lo. everytime going up slope. i got no choice but to get off my bike n hike up the slope. den feel so lonely lo. cos no one to pei me tok n all. den reali is i alone cycle de lo. no one ard me or wat. cos everybody all in front of me. my team-mates din even wait for me. =x guess i was reali too slow le. den when i reach tis bridge. mt team-mates were der. they had waited for me. den dey cycled off. n siyong was left der. he said he will cycle behind me. gosh. how glad i felt at dat moment. how grateful i was. den i continue cycling. i reali feel so xin ku lo. den once. siyogn shouted to move to move aside cs got van behind. i tried to swerve but my bike went out of my control. n i fell out of de bike. dat was painful. hais. but i tried to hide my pain n de tears dat almost fell. cos i guess if i reali broke into tears. i wonder how siyong gonna react. n i dun wan be crybaby. my wound was bleeding. but not beli profusely. so i dun care abt it. n tried to continue cycling. it was painful at first. cos while cycling i have to move my legs which in turns tend to stretch de wound. hais. later on. siyong n chuntat change shift. n chuntat stayed behind me. he was nice. he tried toking to me. encouraging me. when i finally reach de destination. wa. i reali so damn glad n relieved dat i can reali burst into tears. but den i cant see sock dey all at where. so i leaned on tis stone railing n rested. den sock called out to me n i join them der. was so tired. reali exhausted. jus den. sock accidentally knocked down 2 bikes onto me. TWO bikes! piangz. i reali ji tao cry lo. den i oso no reaction. cos i have no more strength left to remove de bikes away. n adrian n sock help me to remove. den sock they all went to buy drinks but i reali dun feel like cycling over to de stall to buy drinks. so i din go. when they left i jus bend my head n tears jus fell. din realise cycling is so xin ku. i reali wan give up le lo. den later. jas came n consoled me. i felt so much better. n den i realised i had so many insects bites. reali a lot lo. all over lo. piangz. den so itchy oso. after dat i folowed jas on de way bak as sock they all taking a diff route bak to de original campsite as dat route was goign to be a touch n rocky one. all de while. jas keep cheering me on. helping me along de way. i was touched lo. so so touched. she was so encouraging. i felt so much better. gees. she's reali nice lo. when we reached. wa. so so relieved. finally it's over! all over. we den have lunch n soon proceeded bak to mainland. den me n jas went to compass to meet sze. n sze gave me my present again. she actuali made me tis card. it was all in chi! so suprising lo. cos i noe her chi beli lousy de. kekes. n she went to cut out words from magazines n paste them onto constrcution paper. reali beli sincere lo. i was truly touched. so so touched. she oso gave me 5 pig keychains. n oso tis cute cute balloon tink with winnie de pooh in it. it was so sweet. so nice of her to tot of all these. kekes. thanks loads wor. later we three went to monfort play bball. but in end nv play cos too many ppl. den at der. got tis 2 guys keep throwing stuff from de many storeys of a blk down to de bball court. even hitte sum of us sitting down der. dey threw tinks like charcoal n bamboo sticks. piangz. beli guo fen lo. den sze samantha n de ppl der were so angry. n samantha called up de police. when de police came they gave warning to de guys n de prob was solved. den later me sze n jas we went home. so tired.

12th August 04 (Thu)
i had got bak my chi olevels results. hais. it's so terrible. so so terrible. was reali upset lo. i had a b3. hais. a few of my frens tot dat i had a1 n came to scold me for not telling dem de gud news. but dey felt a little guilty when i told dem i had b3 instead. hais. reali disappointed with my poor results.

14th August 04 (Sat)
today my chi trch had treated us to a meal at a restaurant in which de name i had forgotten. i met up with jade n went der. almost lost our way. n we were late for abt 45 min lo. kekes. cos jade wan go bak home change her clothes as she has dressed too casually n she wanted to change into sumitnk a little less casual. anyway when we reached der. almost everyone was der aleli. we ordered our food. at de end of de day. de meal had costed 740+ bucks. gosh dat's so expensive. we had abt 28 ppl der. meaning abt 25+ bucks per person. later most of us went kovan. actualy wan take neoprints but de shop refuses us as they say dey wan to close aleli. but they r suppose to close at 11.45 but de time was only 11.30. bad lo they. den no choice me n jade we went home. both of us had a long chat with each other. n had said so many tinks to each other. it was fun n nice toking to her. kekes.

6th August 04 (Fri)
today i had my eng olevel oral. felt so cheating. cos mrs lee told us wateva dat was cuming out. luckily bcos of dat i felt more prepared. otherwise i guess i wun do as well as i did. gud luck to my oral den.

19th August 04 (Thu)
piangz. today mrs lee so tMd. she's a total bitch lo. kPo. scoled me for making frens with de 4t guys. walaos. dat's no business of hers for sure. she wan to probe so much for wat. kaos. so fed up with her. den say they might take advantage of me one day. n til dat day i will regret for being frens with dem. walaos. her mind always so full of such dirty stuff oni. den say de 4t guys must have bein so glad to have me as im such a useful tool to dem. f it. she's so damn sarcastic. she's so terribly biased agst dem lo. look down n depise dem so much. i tink she's worse off. her character suxs. her behaviour suxs too. she aint suit for a trch. moreover a hod. NO! no of cos!. she's not cut out to be at all. f it.
later on i had dance practice. as today was our dance audition for de trch's day. truthfully. i reali had no confidence. i was afraid we might not get into de audition at all. dat day. after my dismissal. i immediately went for dance practice n practised hard. later on. during de audition. we danced hard. gosh. i was so nervous dat i danced a few steps wrongly. after we were done with. it was xian's turn. her dance was superb. n nice. so gentle so sweet. after dat audition we were abt to go home. den huiqi told us de results. we had got in. but only de f.i.r dance. de couple dance din managed to get in. n xian's dance din either. it was saddening in both cases. i wasn't at all happy to noe f.i.r dance got in. dunoe y too. guess i was stil so fed up over mrs lee. at nites. i chatted with jingjie n sze till i cry. dunoe why. hais. these days not reali in a normal mood. can be reali crazy at times. kaiyi have witness it. but mrs lee's words have reali pierced thru me. it was hurting for sure. n i reali did tot long abt it. she's wrong for sure. but y does her words hurt me so much. n made me so upset. she's a total bitch. hated her so much.

my bdAy
my bdAy
today's my bday. slept early de nite b4. reali beli tired. den in de middle of nites hp keep ringing cos of the msg ppl sent me to wish me happy bday. guess i was reali tired. dat i jus shut my phone to silence n put it on de floor so dat it cant wake me up n i continued slping. hmm next day wake up to see de many msg. reali touched dat my frens took de effort to stay up late n wish me happy bday. =)
guess i had started tis supposedly joyous day of mine with a bad start. was feeling in de rite mood. reach sch le. sally gave me a giraffe soft toy which she n han had shared to buy. den sel n xian gave me a bouquet of a sunflower. dat was reali sweet n nice of dem. cass gave me a photoframe with our pics on it plus a super long letter which was reali moving. han oso gave me cards. char gave me tis hp holder. n yun. she actualy spent a lot of time making tis big bottle filled with pinkish purple gel which had my name in it. it was so marvellously done. so beautiful n creative of her. reali beli sweet n nice lo. i was reali touched to tears. reali thanks a lot my frens! sebast den came n look for me n gave me tis leo soft toy keychain along with sum chocs. =) thanks so much! bak in class. qian n ken had bought me loads of tidbits n sweets plus a small notebk in which they had a chat box in it. kekes. sijie n weilign buy me a box of choc plus a toy in which u can blow bubbles of diff sizes. it was fun. shimin n joyce gave me tis cute cute pinkish face towel with a nice hanger n a key ringchain. den during recess. i walk out of de class n saw shaoxiong jianjie jacus yongqiang n renxiong. they had actually came personally to give me presents. wa. i was reali touched lo. din expect dat at all. jacus n my shifu, yongqiang, had bought me tis purple piggy bank. kekes. n shaoxiong n jianjie had bought me tis piggy soft toy. dat was reali huggable. it was nice. =) thanks a lot! thanks so much! later on i met with kaiyi n walk to canteen. den weijie passed me my gift. sort of shocked when he walk up to me. sorii din actually say a proper thank you. "thanks so much" =) he had gave me a big milk bottle filled with hearts n paper cranes. there was tis pig with dice on it which read "05 august" dat was my bday. kekes. thanks so much. u reali had spent so much effort on it. thanks so much! den later liangyou passed me a card he made. well. it was so nicely made. moreover purple colour. thanks a million. he oso passed me a card which was made by sok ching. thanks too. thou i dun reali noe u. thanks so much wor. =) later on i had a big surprise. jas had actually gathered ppl to chip in for a gigantic bday cake for me. dat was certainly so nice n great of her to do dat. was indeed beli touched. i was of cos embarrassed as they sang de bday song so loud so that almost everyone in de canteen was looking into my direction. thank goodness i was small enuff to hide my aleli blushing face. was almost moved to tears. reali beli gan dong. to see all my sjab frens surrounding me celebrating my bday. it was so warming. thanks so much ppl. =) it reali made my heart smile for de day. den later i cut de cake n help to serve ard. as de cake was way to big for all of us to finish. de cake was actually delivered by jas grandma lo. so thank you! den later marya smashed cake on me. twice sumore. kekes. den i smashed bak her. i look so pathetic lo. de cake cream was so oily. kekes. anyway huiqi weeteng n meli had bought me sum accessories n a frenship cushion. those were reali sweet n nice. stella had bought me a piggy with light. sock gave me photo frame where there was our photo. kaiyi n hueyen gave me polly pocket n a pen holder. gosh polly pocket leh. kekes. truly i seem to be a child in their eyes. kekes. =) hmm sorii if ive missed out any presents given to me or even mixed up de presents. sorii wor. cos i have bad memory. den at dat time i was so blur when ur gave me present so i seem to forget. sorii. but all in all thanks so much! =)
however. i was quite sad to noe dat sze n ck din cum sch. 2 days bak both say will cum sch de n den after sch pei me play bball. but they nv cum sch. reali quite disappointed. dunoe why they often pon sch de. suan le.
anyway after dat happy celebration i went bak class for lessons. mdm yong wanted me stay bak after sch half hour to do her poa work cos dat time i nv go her lesson. den after sch i went look for her n was halfway thru my work when cass ask me pei her go toilet so i went with her lo. den when walking bak class. oranjees was der. dey had bought a cake for me. reali happy n shcok to see them. den cheangzheng so funny. he go draw on tis paper "happy bday janice (manager)" n pasted it on the plastic tink n placed it on de cake. kekes. so sweet n nice of them all. den they sang bday song for me. kekes. it was so warming. i felt touched. den later i cut de cake n everyone had a slice. but b4 i even had my slice, cass ong! she smashed a cake rite into my face! gosh. so terrible! i wan revenge oso canot. cant see. reali is tio my whole face. sumore she still rub onto mine face! den so i went toilet wash up. when i came bak i took a piece of cake ready to smash cass. but she was too fast for me plus jianting was protecting her. kekes. so no choice i changed target to cheangzheng. since earlier on he say he wanted smash me later. kekes. i smashed him le den i faster ran out from 4e5 n out of dat class. den sum oranjees were der blocking. den i saaw him out of the class holding a cake. so no choice i have to run. i run many rounds lo. b4 i was reali out of breath n i had to take a short rest but soon he caught up with me n smashed me. =x me so pitiful. den i was walking so slowly to de nearest toilet den i saw many ppl der.den keep luff at me. den suddenly kendrick popped out with a piece of cake in his hands. hais. i ran once more. reali damn tiring lo. cos they run so fast. i was running with my life lo. den i reali bei ta han le. i knelt down on de floor jus as he caught up. i kept pleading him not to smash. but...he did!.. piangz den i picked up de cake he smash me with n chased him bak. reali determined to have him dirtied. den i noe i cant outrun him so i no choice but to aim n throw it at him. kekes. i was accurate. den after dat i ran to de gers toilet fast. as he wanted to take his revenge again. haas. reali beli tiring. den after dat i jus spent so much time in de toilet washing my hair n face. so so so so so oily lo! cant stand it. i last yr bday oso kana smashed. but tis yr worst. lols. but tis yr more fun n nice n touching n memorable to me indeed. =) my happiest bday ever! reali. i can swear to it.
after dat sze n jas came to my class n help me take my presents to de classrm downstairs as i had a short dance practice b4 i go play bball. they reali beli caring. came up n helped me. later i went play bball with kaiyi jas corina sze kevin stella vivian. it was of cos fun! =) kekes. reali enjoyed myself. den kevin gave me one piglet soft toy n a small bear. den vivian gave me tis sweet looking box in which there was a cute pig bottle which she had made sum stars n put in it. n oso a small bear. =) dat was certainly so sweet fo her. =D thanks so much. sze bought me a blueberry vodka n plus she gave de signed autograph "ai ni" album of cyndi! thanks so much sze!
later on shifu tell me help him draw sum dNt stuff. so i help a bit lo. after helping le. guess wat he did. he say he wan shake hand n wish me happy bday. so i shook. n den! piangz. he took my hand n tried to gave a kiss on it. no matter how hard i struggled i jus cant pull off my hand lo. he so =x. very qB (qian bian) lo. den ck came bak sch too. say play bball with me. oso nv. bluff de. sumore play with other ppl. kekes. i gud. nvm. shaoxiong oso nv play oso. guess he was busy with his dNt stuff ba.
later on sze pei me home as i certainly cant go home myself as i dun have de strength of 10 cows to carry those gifts. so she helped me. reali thanks so much wor. den after dat i pei sze go take bus. den ck msg me say he now cum meet me give me present. so sze n me waited for him at my hse bustop. when he FINALLY came. he passed me my present n kianhui's present to me too. kianhui had bought me a box of choc. it look so expensive. guess it must have been. thanks so much wor. =) den ck made me hearts n stars. n gave me a necklace n a small bear bear too. plus he made tis tink in which he made used of those hearts, which he use straws to fold, to make into "happy birthday". dat was so great. thanks a million wor =)!hmm den after dat i wait for sze take cab go le b4 i walk bak home. den later ck pei me walk till my hse void deck der. thou i keep insisting him not to. but he was defiant. =x kekes. anyway he pei me walk until my hse der b4 he went to take bus to go for his bball training. bak home den my sis say she tink sze beli pretty. say she look beli pretty n sweet-looking. indeed i agree. kekes. my laogong leh. later on, i receive a call frm jas. she was at my hse downstairs lo. got me a shock. i den went down meet her. n she gave me my presents. she had actually made tis 500 piece puzzle all by herself. in which she had spent 4 sleepless nites to finsh it up. she was reali wei da lo. i was damn touched to receive her gift. she oso bought a piano musical box for me. it was so beautiful n oh my! the music was so soothing. it was absolutely fantastic. it has certainly cost her a bomb. reali beli touched. her gifts made me feel touched de most. in addition she even gave me tis memo pad in which she had written her inner tots to me. it was. reali touching. i cired hard as i read all de sad sad msn nick dat i had. she actually went to copy down all those msn nick dat i once had. reali yong xin liang ku. she made me feel so touched. i reali sobbed hard. she's de most wonderful fren i had indeed. her care n concern for me is never-ending. =) reali thanks a million. thanks a billion. thank so beli much!
anyway. i was reali tired. went to have a long bath. trying to wash off the grease on my hair n face. hais. tiring n indeed a fun day! it was so marvellous! it was de most fantastic wonderful fabulous bday i ever had!!!!! =D

周杰伦 - 七里香
周杰伦 - 七里香
had a liking for jay's songs these days. it's nice n soothing. marvellous music. love them loads. esp his love songs. his new album. super. i jus love tis song of his. de lyrics r nice oso. he's so cool lo. =) jay. u rox.

窗外的麻雀 在电线杆上多嘴
你说这一句 很有夏天的感觉
手中的铅笔 在纸上来来回回
我用几行字形容你是我的谁

秋刀鱼 的滋味 猫跟你都想了解
初恋的香味就这样被我们寻回
那温暖 的阳光 像刚摘的鲜艳草莓
你说你舍不得吃掉这一种感觉

雨下整夜 我的爱溢出就像雨水
院子落叶 跟我的思念厚厚一迭
几句是非 也无法将我的热情冷却
你出现在我诗的每一页

雨下整夜 我的爱溢出就像雨水
窗台蝴蝶 像诗里纷飞的美丽章节
我接着写 把永远爱你写进诗的结尾
你是我唯一想要的了解

那饱满 的稻穗 幸福了这个季节
而你的脸颊像田里熟透的蕃茄
你突然 对我说 七里香的名字很美
我此刻却只想亲吻你倔强的嘴

hais
hais
yun say. sat they will be celebrating han bday. have to give it a miss. cos i'll be at pulau ubin. sad. they say wait till i return bak frm dat trip den they celebrate mine since thur for them is a busy day. so they have no time celebrate. tink i return bak le wun have time oso. everyone will be chiong-ing their preliums le. i wun mind of cos. jus perhaps a little upset. nvm. anyway tis thur got ppl pei me play bball. im more than happy for sure. at least i can to play my only fave ball game. hope we will have a fun time instead of a dreadful one. wishing it wun be a rainy day. hais. han. sorii. cant celebrate with ya. =x reali sorii.

hais. de dance is bothering me so much. jus wasn't in de mood to dance n tink steps these days. like so happening these days too. hmm. mrs tan. dunoe how i feel towards her too.i was moved by her. yes indeed. perhaps. hais. dun wan harbour any negative tots. suan le. we gonna have to go thru audition next week. but i reali doubt we can complete de dance. i tink steps until be xin ku le. jus no bright ideas tis time. dun wanna see all our efforts being wasted. esp de couple dance. jus reali hope those guys n gers in de couple dance will jiayou. i mean reali jiayou as not to keep forget steps. hais. wan to correct their mistakes oso hard. jus wun change. hope tis performance will seem appealing enuff to those judges for dem to pick tis dance. reali hope. as for de other dance. i dun wish it to be out. hais. see how. trying hard to make it nice. but de song so fast. jus sare they cant catch up. rite now tinking of how to start off the intro. tink 3 times le. but first 2 times not nice. not successful. 3rd time dey cant do de steps. gotta tink of another simple set of steps. stupid dumb intro. so dificult to tink steps to coordinate with de music lo. aiya. luan luan lai suan le.

tis fri gonna go pulau ubin for a sjab trip. hais. dunoe y i dun seem to be looking forward to it. weird. i jus feel so uneasy all over. hais. i dun quite noe how to ride bike lo. dunoe how de world am i gonna survive at dat pulau ubin. hais. reali dread going der sumtimes when i tink abt dat trip. but of cos. i have my frens who will go with me. but still. dat awful feeling stays. hais.

sze n isa. get well soon wor. both of ur oso sick. takecare oki? rest well. slp more. drink loads of water wor. dun get urself sicker. takecare of ur health. slp tites.
nites to all my frens. muaks. missing ya.

=) smiles
=) smiles
gees. sumtink made me so happy lo. n gave me a shock initially. sze today i bus gave me "sumtink". wa. dat tink gave me a shock indeed. n she gave it to me. den she explained y. n it made me smile! kekes. sze. im damn proud of u. reali. laogong u de best le. muaks!
anyway today i had dance practice. we learn quite a few steps but seems dat they dun like de intro part. hais. gotta rethink it. moreover de intro part beli hard lo. de tune so weird to choreograph. n rite now. i have no bright ideas at all. to me dancing is like doing a project. gotta plan n make de whole tink look nice. haas. it's true. dat's wat it is to me. perhaps dat's y i was once made a publicity head ba. lols. hmm. glad dat shaoxiong n sze ALMOST finished their dnt. congrats to shaoxiong for being able to finish it alone. li hai wor. =p sze. so glad u nv give up. keep it up wor. u today pon sch. so bad. but nvm. ur actions today have made it up. lols. jiayou. i will support u always. =) smiles! missing all frens!
xavier. thanks a lot wor. =) for being der for me at times when im down. n i dun even noe it was u. cos u din say out ur name when leaving comments in my blog. but i jus have s strong hunch it was u. lols. noe y? cos by the bday card u given me. kekes. thanks loads wor. ya so nice to rmb my bday n all. =) ur gift is certainly one in which i will treasure certainly. reali thanks loads!!! frens.eva

softhearted?
softhearted?
hais. am i getting a little too softhearted. i dunoe. felt reali confused. it's never-ending. i jus cant cum to a decision at all. weird. i reali dunoe how i felt. felt so at a loss. gosh. goner. hais. tink im beli bad lo. hais. dunoe la. y tis tink must happen. hais. felt so flustered.

i Hope i Wish i Dream
i Hope i Wish i Dream
darn it. my mum's like a fly wheezing in n out around me. irritating me so much. she's so terrible naggy! jus cant stand her. eeKs. jus HOPE she'll stop it. so irritating of her. hais. i aleli fan enuff liao she jus added on to my heavy burden. im so pissed.

hais. tot the dance practice was on thur. but it wasn't. turn out dat it was on tue. which was terrible. cos i haben even choreograph half de song yet. not even a quater i tink. hais. how now. now de dance grp i tink oni left me n isa tink steps liao. but isa is busy. so am i. hais. i dun wan sacrifice studies. jus have to try juggle both. rite now i jus tied choreographing up to intro part oni lo. cham le. gotta jiayou. but now i no mood tink steps oso. tink liao oso not nice de. sianz half. i feel so worried. not only for my studies n oso de dance. jus hope dat the rest of de dancers wun blame me if we reali cant finish de dance or cant get into de audition. dat will be a waste of our time. hais. but i reali do WISH dat our dance can get in. including de couple dance.

my DREAM. a dream where der's oni happiness. no one's sad. no one's angry. no one's disappointed. no one's crying. no tears. no nothing. jus laughter ringing abt in de air. smiles flashing in everyone's face. cheerios. but it all will oni happen in DREAMs. if reality ever does happen like tis. it's gonna be boring. =)

梁静茹 - 对不起我爱你
梁静茹 - 对不起我爱你
没别的 只想说对不起 对不起 我真的爱你
不管你会怎么想 你怎么说 也不会改变我的决定
你知道 有时候感情事很难说 很难说 爱人或朋友
从前到现在 我真的感觉要 一想你 我的心就发烧
想给你听我的心跳 想你知道我睡的不好
喝水想着你 搭车想着你 阖眼闭眼间 出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情 我等不到你的回应
不想难为你 又不想放弃你 决定告诉你 对不起对不起 我爱你
没别的 只想说对不起 怎么样 我都会珍惜
不管你会怎么讲 你怎么做 也不会影响我的心情
你知道 有时候男孩更难捉摸 难捉摸 爱人或朋友
现在到永远 我真会感觉要 一想你 我的心就狂跳
我的模样记不记的牢 情人卡有没有收到
读书想着你 听歌想着你 大地和蓝天 出现的全是你
我才不管你的表情 我才不理你回不回应
不想难为你 又不想放弃你 决定告诉你 对不起对不起 我爱你
你听一听我的心跳 你看一看我睡的不好
喝水想着你 搭车想着你 阖眼闭眼间 出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情 我等不到你的回应
不想难为你 又不想放弃你 决定告诉你 对不起对不起 我爱你

confuse =\
confuse =
felt confused rite now. hais. reali dunoe wat to do. i felt as if heaven is playing a joke on me. letting suc a tink to happen to myself. n it was such a coincidence too. felt quite upset by it. i dunoe how am i feeling towards it. reali dunoe. im jus totally clueless. hais. how now? can i reali let nature take its own course? i dunoe. guess i better make up my mind.

these days quite happening. anyway my waist hurts loads still. hais. twisted it for abt a week yet still yet recover. felt so pathetic. felt so crippled. gosh. wat's up with me?
jas. thanks for de "house of happiness" dat u have made for me. it's absolutely filled up of stars. those stars are overflowing of ur care n concern from u. reali thanks. u actualy spent an entire nite without slpin to do it. u r a fantastic fren. reali thanks so much. indeed, touched is no longer a word to describe my feelings when i received dat gift frm u. indescribable feeling dat is. tears jus fill my eyes. reali touched. =) thanks loads jas. for being a wonderful fren.
kaiyi. u too. thanks so much for ya care n concern once again. ya have been der whenever i nid u. reali u are great. the days with u are surely filled with laughter n joy. fun is guaranteed whenever n wherever u are. =) u jus noe how to cheer ur little fren of urs (dat's me =p) when she's feeling down. kekes. ur nice, great, superb, terrific n etc. lols. too many adjectives to list down. kekes. and a great thank you to u! =)
yunz. thanks wor! reali thanks! reali reali thanks! i reali dunoe wat to say. jus wanna let ya noe. i feel great being with u. i noe u r always silently der for me. i jus wan to tell ya dat notice ur existence n i have been praying for ya well-being too. jus like de way u r doing it to me. =)
thanks oso to those frens who tag at my board showing ur concern for me. thanks. ur r great. anyway i jus hope whoeva tagging on my board put ur name? so i can noe ur r who. =) thanks wor. frens.rocks.my.world
sze. dun so upset leh. see u like these days a bit upset. dun give up on ur dnt. it will surely work de. all ur frens wil be supporting u. dun always keep tinks to urself either. let it out at times. find sumone whom u feel most comfortable with n tell him/her. dun forget. ur frens will be der whenever u nid dem. dat's a guarantee. even if no one wan to hear u out. u still have me. u can still find me. i am surely 24 hours available for u. even when im slping n u nid me. jus give me a call. i will hear u out for sure. =) takecare leh ger. dun wish to see ya sad sad de.
shaoxiong wor. i will try my best help ya in all possible ways. u mus jiayou for dnt wor. see u redo ur dnt work until so jialat oso feel sad n gan cheong for ya. ut u canot give up wor. it's jus a little setback. i noe u can do it. i will help ya de. jiayou leh.

hais. end of my entry le ba. atualy got many tinks to write. but forget le. i made up my mind. but will i stick to it. hope so. jus hope dat tinks go on find. n sorii wor. im jus afraid ive made a wrong choice.but no matter wat i wun regret it. jus wan say "sorii". hais. i feel like im a baddie. hais. felt guilty n bad. "sorii" de only tink i can say. but dat person wun noe either. miss.