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monday again. . hais. today wasn't in de mood to study at all lo. i guess everyone else shares de same sentiment. got bak my amaths paper today. osh. =x paper 1 delievered a shock to me. got a c5 grade for my paper 1 lo. piangz. hais. i was like -. jus so disappointed. tinking dat i must have not done well. den gave bak paper 2. i got an a1 for dat. but dat a1 wasn't high enuff to pull my total grade to an a1. wasn't reali disappointed. cos i studied hard for amaths. for all maths. maybe others might say i study not hard enuff. well. at least i studied sufficiently. but. guess my maths has sort of deprove. moreover. i haven't yet got over de fact i failed my amaths mock de other time. dat's de worst tink in my entire life up till today. so de 72% i got for my amaths tis time round is actually quite a big feat. a remarkable one for me. quite a wonderful achievement. perhaps im trying to console myself ba. but i got to. otherwise later i get so upset over. =x. hais. fran kept consoling me cos she noe i was quite upset. hais. nvm. i noe i can work doubly hard. even thou there's moderation which in turns cost me to get an A1 grade for my amaths. i feel dat. well. i better had grade myself without moderation. in tis way. it can spur me on to aim 88% for an a1. eWw. . hais. stressed up.
mrs tan today after sch. asked me to go to a corner as she wans to tok to me. but not exactly to a corner. cos yun n cass were der eavesdropping. =x. she den tell me she's glad abt my results. happy for me. n tel me dat i nid to maintain my present state of emotions. as i tend to be emotional which in turns affects my exams. =x. dat's so terrible. gotta stay happy n hyper these days till olevels end. i'm so afraid abt it. how in de world could i control my emotions?. . hais. den she tok till i almost teared. not cos im disappointed with my results. it was bcos. at dat moment. after hearing wat she said. i felt reali glad. as if de heavy 10-ton load has jus been lifted off me. as if de long-forgotten rainbow has jus appeared in de sky of mine. jus felt real touched. den yun whispered to cass that im abt to cry. =x so i din cry k. gosh. diary. im reali glad. but at de same time amidst my relief i felt a pinch of sadness. =x. nvm. hope dat tinks wun get worse. i dun wish to be depressed at tis moment of time.
diary . . . i got to band 1A for amaths. it's great being in dat band since yun n cas r in it too. but personally. i dun wish to be in dat band. not dat der's anytink wrong with it. jus dat. being in dat band gets me more stressed up. n real stressed up. i prefer bein in mdm ee class. less stress. not bcos de pace over der is slower or watsoeva. but she tends not to be stressful in her teaching. but i feel in mrs tan class. it's like taking exams each lesson. so scary. can feel de tension in de class. gonna make all my trch a card each to reali thank dem for their efforts put in teaching us. after my olevels den. chi prelium tis fri. =x. 2 months past without touching on chi at all. =x. jus started studying few days bak. could recapped actually. but nidda practise more.
hais. . haben get bak de other results. gotta worry lo. i wish i wouldn't fail any others. =x. cos. . hais. seems dat chem has been done badly. mr tan says de. dat reali dampen my mood. =x. my chem hasn't been at all dat powerful. i tried to understand as much as i can le. plus take exam dat day i suay suay sick. =x hope my marks oso not dat suay. aiyo. today like nth to be happy abt.
sel dun brood over it. i noe u r trying to maintain ur positive self. keep it up. muaks! mummy! miss ya! =)
weijie. work harder wor. =) stop going online so often le leh. spend de time on studying.
cass. start study chi le wor. =) jiayou. muz aim for a1 now le.
fran. hmm i doubt u will be reading tis. anyway. dun let those stuff get in de way of ur studying. it saddens me to see ya so upset almost everyday. i noe it's quite difficult not to feel dat way. well. leave those tinks until olevels. u still do have nice caring wonderful frens dat care for u wor. *ahEm =p
hmm. nites. - i guess either it's impossible for us. or dat u probably dun bother abt it. no use trying to salvage it. dun understand wat ya tinking of at times. suan le -