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Monday, October 04, 2004
fatigue
fatigue

been so tired these days. .tired out frm the 3 continuous days of toning at my grandpa funeral. din go sch on fri. as thur nite funeral ceremony ended late into de nite. reached home abt 3 plus. .bath n all. den slp a little n den went bak funeral der.it was been a family gathering those days. .cos all de cousins seldom meet with each other. n bcos of tis funeral our bonds were greater. it was quite a tink to rejoice n which is wat dat kept my spirits high amidst de sadness i felt. hais. .on fri nite me n cousins stayed overnite der. we reali had nth much to do so we played majong while watching over the incense. making sure it doesn't burn out. we played for quite a while b4 we got sick of de game. den we decided to play badminton. went to de court n play. had a few matches. it was fun. but den suddenly a crazy guy dressed in a cowboy suit with long greasy hair came running towards us. we din get much a fright thou. instead de scene amused us so much dat we were convulsed in laughter. dat guy stood in de middle of de court. dancing away. performing taiji-like actions. it was an amusing n hilarious sight. we jus luff on n on. den my cousin spoke out. asking wat he doing. .den de guy claimed dat he was de ang mo kio cowboy. dat comment received much laughter too. he even say dat play badminton must shake here n der. n watsoeva. beli lame lo. den he say he was drinking. but he wasn't drunk. n he say he was driving when he saw us. so he stopped his car n approached us. we den turn towards the direction he's pointing n saw a car der. n blive his words. den he took out a namecard in which my cousin approached n saw it was a seafood restaurant namecard where de actualy name was cancelled n replaced by a handwritten "cowboy". so funny lo. it's reali entertaining initially. but as my cousins shouted at him to move away n he din. we got quite irritated. he was like in our way as we were playing our games. bth. stubborn old man. he jus keep showing off his taiji movements. den i tot if we jus carried on with our game he might jus leave us alone. . but he stood in de middle of de court. den i dun care n started to serve de ball. but his actions irks me so much dat i jus shout out suddenly amidst our game. my cousins were startled by my sudden outburst. guess they nv see me in such a state b4. i told de guy to siam. but he din even budge. so i jus continue to shout at him. n my cousins too. .den one of my cousin ran out to de road to chase tis police car dat happen to pass by. .soon de mad guy ran off. n my cousin returned. moments later de polive came n asked us to stop playing as it was like abt 4 plus in de early morning. n told us dat de guy we met was mad. so my cousin was like pissed off by the police. n told dem dat they should keep de guy in an institute as he was a public danger. who noes wat he might do to others. lucky we were in a big group. de police were sort of quite irresponsible. .den later i realised datde car dat we saw earlier n had tot it belonged to de cowboy was actually another guy's car. so de mad guy had bluff us. .dat cowboy guy is so irritating. luckily he din disturb de funeral. otherwise i guess he will have surely suffer a few bruises or so. we den sat down to chat. n tok abt dat cowboy. haas. pretty amusing. edwina brought his bf. pretty brave of her to do dat. as her parents din noe. n it was like their relationship was quite obvious. but a gud tink dat none of my relatives noe it. as they were all engaged in their game of majong. n they leave us kids aside. she's de same age as me n had a bf of 21 yrs i tink. pretty shock when i noe. =x.
de nxt day was even more boring. no cowboy to entertain us. but there was a lot of ceremonies. sumtimes i even doze off amidst de ceremonies. so so tired lo. canot tahan. sat nite me n my cousins stayed overnite too. dat day had several ceremonies too. pretty tiring thou. den der's tis big gang of ppl. mostly old man in their late 50s to 70s ba. n several young bengs n lians. it was like so many ppl lo. den wilson ask me to watch later. so i watched. there were frm a gang. dat my 1st n 2nd uncle noe n join in b4. i tink la. according to my dad. but not reali sure abt it. but den dat big gang queued up n walked to de front of de funeral to pay respects. they bowed 3 times. thou most of dem weren't sincere when bowing. but at least they gave their support by cuming. my dad say de. but wilson n ginny ain't reali happy abt it. wilson sumore seem rather fierce.worst tink is. the ppl carrying de coffin will be dem lo. .=x piangz. dat's one tink i quite bu shuang. hais. asked a few frens if they wan cum. but none came. a couple or more said she wan cum but in the end canot or nv..den benny actualy wan cum on sat nite. to pei me. but in de end yq canot. den nv cum le. so boring. hais. actually not reali bored. jus dat. .=x
forget abt it. anyway thanks benny. i noe ya actually wan so much to cum. thanks anyway. reali glad to hear u've been studying. must jiayou k benny. study hard ba. jingjie u oso wor. cheerios. sze. jiayou i will support u all de way. study hard. dun get so gloomy le. n hmm. hope - study hard. heard frm benny u r studying. jiayou ba. =) luck to u all. i nidda learn to take tinks easy. hais. dun wan dat to affect any other tinks.
den ytd was sunday. my grandpa chu bin. de atmoshpere was rather saddening. everyone wasn't in de rite mood to chit chat n all. i went in a few time to take a few last look at my grandpa. tears jus rolled. many other cried too. everyone was jus so emotional.de feeling of losing a kin. .hais. de ceremony started. it took beli long. soon. de coffin was carried away. we walked onto de roads barefooted wearing only a pair of socks. it was rather painful n i stepped onto sumtink sharp. n my foot hurts a lot. but gonna tolerate. den got these few bengs up in front. they seems to be here jus for de fun. as in enjoying de drinks n food n all. piangz. bth. n there were 6 weak guys carrying de coffin. they reali weak lo. cant carry like dat. even had to put towels on their shoulders to ease de pain. moreover they dun walk in a straight line. kept jerking de coffin n walking slantly. weaklings. shouldn't have dem carrying ma. we walked till we reached de mac den we took de chartered bus to guangming shan. we settled down n knelt down. awaiting for de monks to chant. de chanting ceremony was over. de metal door slide open. revealing de big fire in it. everyone burst into tears. it was heart breaking as de coffin was pushed in gradually. we shouted. we screamed. . .cant take it. it was reali so upsetting. imagine de grieve n all. everyone of us felt. hais. we went thru de last ceremony n left dat place. we sat in de buses. de entire bus was so quiet. there was absolute silence. but there's tis 2 old man sitting jus behind me. who kept on toking n luffing n al. it was reali irritating. i have de urge to turn bak to give them a thrashing. but there was no strength in me. no. not anymore. we got down de bus. it was raining. my cousins we all gathered. n we tok abt dat 2 irritating guys. they too. felt de same as me. soon we left each other heading for home. hais. we all felt de same actually. we were all unsure of when will be de next gathering. it will surely be a long time after. wonder if we can still meet up during chinese new yr next yr since both my grandparents had passed away. hais. will we still meet? i hope so. during tis period of time it has been hard on xiao di(edmund), ar bu(vincent) n ar tian(wilson). cos they have to take care of my 2 nauti brothers during all ceremonies. n it was reali difficult. as they kept crying n throwing tantrums. so sorii for de problems caused. they were vexed. can see lo. but reali sorii. n thanks so much for putting up with it. ur de greatest n nicest cousins i have. =) smiles. till we see again.
today was almost late for sch. but i ran away frm it. along with jade n wilson. had maths mock exam later in de noon. it was a disaster. reali disappointing. damn woriied abt it. hais. has been hallucinating de whole day. tried to pick up a pencil dat was not der. drew a line above my ruler. aiya. jus so weird. guess i had not enuff slp. der goes my emaths mock exam. hais. wish i din cum sch today. so i could jus have taken a retest. i jus hope i wun do dat badly. .=x

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