mJc
mJc
entered mjc for the 3 months tink. got into sci stream. was everytink i wanted. =) glad abt it. heys. diary. me been rather gloomy these days. wth. i hate to smile to pretend. cos i dun like ppl coming after me. be it consoling me, asking me or watsoeva. wat's wrong? many tinks wrong. jus cant seem to pin point wateva. jus cant seem to be left alone. otherwise the next moment i wun be smiling le. =x ppl ask me wat's wrong. i jus brushed dem off saying dat im tired.. felt quite glad. de other time when i was reali down. benny called n can sense my feelings. thou i sounded quite alrite. eeps. he's reali my one gud buddy. i love u man. as a fren of cos. =) wat do ppl do when they're upset? sit der n cry? yea. i do dat at times. sumtimes i jus keep listening to music. or even take a long walk. or i jus keep luffing for no rhyme or reason. a rather dumb way to vent ur sadness hur. =x
im so clumsy. i felt so dumb. i guess im quite useless. as in i cant do much at all. everyone nids to takecare of me. everyone's tinking dat im small. well im not. im a grown-up 16 yr old ger. hais. i sounded so pessi all of a sudden. i dun feel like the usual me. wat's wrong. aiyo. mood swing liao. wth. waseh. i nidda get a hold on myself. hmm. .wat shall i do.? oki. get started on such romance stories or books. =) yea. dat should solve it.

been to de dance audition today. gosh. i danced horrid. the worst dance ive danced b4. shimin felt dat abt herself too. hais. isa n joy still oki. but me n min have been dying to enter tis dance cca. =x hais. if i cant enter im gonna lose all interest in dancing le. =X ive always wanted to learn dance. hais. i hope min n me got into it! tml results gonna be out. reali afraid. wat if i cant get in. eeps. reali disappointing abt my performance during dat audition. hais. moreover they taught us belly dance n wanted us to learn the steps n show dem. gosh. wth! damn trch. it was supposed to be sum modern dance steps but dat trch suddenly opened his darn mouth n uttered belly dance! so pig rite! tMd. .beli qian ta leh dat trch! bth. my confidence level dropped from a 8 to 2. gosh. hais. after dat dance audition me n min n joy n isa went round to look for kaiyi. wanting to support her in her bball trial. but she's like nowhere to be found. i even asked ard but to no avail. hais. so i asked them to return home. cos obviously they din wan to stay n look ard further. so i jus stayed in canteen. for 2 whole hours b4 kaiyi came. =x hais. nvm.

suddenly recalled bak to the morning of the day when one of my OG members din wan to move infront of the line n was like blocking everyone's way. n yet she still dare to tell me off asking y she should be the one moving n not me. wth.. said it with so much sarcasm. felt quite pissed at dat moment. n i told her off. so wat if u're frm sum rather gud sch. at least xms students have better manners.
i suddenly have a huge dislike for ppl to tok with a tinge of sarcasm. it jus irks me loads. one of my fren did dat to me today. eeps. was reali pissed. but i reali ren lo. but she jus went on n on. wth. suan le. jan's a nice ger. =X