my blue blue days
my blue blue days
today xinmin promotion parade. quite hapie abt everytink except part of it. jus so esp fed up with dat person.
wth. =Xx
so two-faced.

home-coming day has passed. was rather boring indeed. there's little stalls on playing games.
almost all r food stalls.
n the tink is i wan to jian fei! =Xx
oMg. went to help out at the junior alumni stall.
=) yeps i tink the whole lot of us did well.
real well i can say.
haas. power of the junior alumni. =D
saw my cousin. has been a long time since i see him.
usually out of 5 times i see him 3 times he will be smoking away.
but not tis time =) proud of him.
long time no chat with him.
sort of misses him n all the rest of my cousins
but. i doubt we'll be in much contact anymore.
my grandpa has passed away.
the link between me n my cousins has gone.
we wun meet up with each other during new year n all.
it's gonna be hard to contact all.
dat's a rather sad tink to say.
im jus so hapie to see my cousin anyway.
seems dat galvin benny they all are getting closer to him.
feeling rather weird abt it. =Xxx well.
anyway saw many frens. saw everyone.
reali miss isa lo. long time nv see her.
so damn glad to be together again.
=) hope ya getting on well in jc sch ger.
at the end of the day, our stall still had loads of ice-cream left.
tubs n tubs of ice-cream lo.
den we jus sell the ice-creams at 1.50. free n easy for all.
cos u can take as much aas u wan in one plate. self-service.
=) my idea leh. kekes.
was a fun day. played bball later with sze kaiyi matt n rayson.
after dat we walk home all the home. oMg my legs almost split.
=Xx but cos i nidda jian fei so i gotta exercise.
den they pei me. =)
dead beat =x

theese few days keep chiong vcd.
watch non-stop lo..
cos nice ma. haas.
hais. wondering who has the vcd of "hai tun wan lian ren" [at the dolphin bay]
cos nanshun borrowed me the part 1 oni.
n the ending is so abrupt. =Xx
sianz half. =Xx dying to watch the show lo.
so any kind souls out der having these vcds lend me kkie?
thanks a lots =)
been bitten by the king mosquito.
sucki lo. cos the bites actually swell.
kaos den my hand so swollen.
n my leg oso. gosh.
hope the swell subsides soon.
cant stand it. =X darn that mosquito bastard.
epps. mosquitoes ought to be eliminated. aRggh!..

SO FAN NAO! =Xx
i reali dunoe wat to do le.
u r determined.
but i have the will to make u lose ur determination.
i blive i can do it.
epps. diary give me strength. =)

gosh. my er-zi's expelled frm sch. hais.
rather upset at the news when he told me.
his whole class are so nice n great.
they actually went to appeal for him.
but it seems that it's unsuccessful.
nvm er-zi.
i will help u pray.
i'll hope for ur appeal to be successful.
dun worry. u wun get expelled. =)
dun get so down kkie. yeps
u cna do it.
rmb to reali study hard okie. =)
mummy zhi chi u.

bAd drEAms.. =XXx
bAd drEAms.. =XXx
again. bad dreams for me. it has been happening so ever often lately. darn. =XXx.
cant i hv sum sweet dreams once in a while. oh my.
wish i had a dreamcatcher. noe y?
hmm. still rmb wat yun has ever told me.
she say dreamcatcher is very special.
cos it actualy catches all ur bad dreams n changed dem.
into good ones of cos.
hmm. shen qi rite? =)
well. i jus wish i had one of those.
sHoo to bad dreams.
rather early in the morning. felt so lethargic. oh me.
feel like snuggling up in my cosy bed.
but couldn't. gotta get ready for home-coming.
haas. not dat im setting up a stall.
jus dat going der to visit lo.
hmm. but im helping in certain booth too. =)
hope archery booth will be rather successsful.
same goes to the junior alarmnine.
lols. *dunoe the spelling.*
gonna get a job n start my saving le.
i wanna have my mp3!!!..
darn that stealer.
crush my dreams jus like dat.
*tingz. i hereby curse u to fall every 10 steps u take.
hmm. hope my curse works.
well. if anyone sees sumone falling down every 10 steps they take
pls...inform me. =)
thanks loads.
well. diary... im gonna break down soon.
omg. haben yet done my otc stuff yet. tml's otc!!!
gosh. im dreading it as days approach.
n guess wat.
piangz. im havign first aid MOI lo.
waseh nv learn dat b4 lo.
even thou i taught 1st aid b4 *it's onli once
i dun hv confidence jus yet.
plus my topic is bites n stings.
oH mE!.. it jus added towards my stress.
could actually feel my blood pressure rising. =Xx
jus got introduced by edwin a slacker job.lols.
wonder if i could get it.
oso got introduced by another fren a job.
door-to-door sales. selling stationary i tink.
thanks goodness it's not nite sales.
haas. otherwise i'll jus reject it straight lo.
hmm. cham. getting late. gotta rush liao.
*poof. byes my darling. =)

=X sUckY
=X sUckY
dreadful day i had. alrite. dreadful DAYS! i had..
to start it off. ive been losing my money plenty of times. n it always happen during sjab activity! =x suxs. dat sneaky thief. dun let me find out who u r. gonna wrench ur hand out. =Xxx got stolen a total of abt 80 to 100 bucks in total le lo. der goes my mp3 player... i've been saving for dat. darn it.

everyday is sjab n sjab n sjab!! =x gosh. my life's busy man. forever im out of my hse. my home has turned into a hotel that is der for me to slp at nite. sad case.

zone comp is over. well. ac won 1st. im glad abt it. i was certain that nc will win 1st too. but they got in 3rd. nevertheless they're always the champs in my heart. im proud of them. i noe they all worked hard. they put in their 101% into tis comp. well. u all did well. shed tears cos the judges dun appreciate ur. sob bcos u're happy that u've won. so wat u've got a third. the tink that matters is ur own effort. u've put in ur best so no regrets ya. i noe that u've appealed. well. no matter wat the outcome of the appeal cse is, stay strong gers. =) i'll be behind ur always, steadily supporting ur. =p the guys. congrats again. =) jiayou for the national comp wor. yeps. all the best.

the farewell party fopr the sec 4s finally ended ytd. well. i couldn't say it was a success. neither was it a complete flop. it jus din turn out wat i expected it to. well. the sec 1s to 3s jus ain't prepared for the performances. could see dat the unity within each squad wasn't dat strong. rather sad abt dat. cracking my brains, tinking of ways to strengthen the untiy of the corp. but it's rather hard thou. my ideas had sorta run out. i reali missed last yr's corp presentation nite. everyone was so united together throu-out that camp. the unity n the bonding is so strong. yep. but wat happen now. =x oki. wateva.

recalling bak the zone comp days. gosh. time flies. the tough times me gen yen isa n sock went thru, endured thru. however difficult it is, we'll face it together. yes. we stand united throu-out. thou we din got 1st for our comp but we felt as if we won the battle. =) it's thru tis comp dat we noe each other better, our ties got strengthened n all. it's all memories. sweet memories dat'll stay with me for good. so comp team. =) it's seems dat there're conflicts. yep. but i jus hope it's gonna be resolve soon. ya?
hmm wen bin. u seems rather upset. well. cheerios boi. dun tink so much ya? takecare wor.
weiqi. hmm yep. i tink u ain't reali urself either. ya. be urself. if ya're feeling stressed up perhaps u'll wan to tok to ur frens. if no one wans to hear u out. er-hem u have ur little mdm here. =)kekes. now u're the publicity head. must bring up the name of publicity kkie? it's all in ur hands. nid any help der's still me n jas! =) but try leave jas alone. cos i wan her to STUDY for her exams. haas. alrite ger? stay cheerful. takecare wor. =p


it seems that i rather lost contact with my frens. it's always sjab n sjab. im ever busy n all. n dat makes my frens not wanting to ask me out. cos most prob my reply will alwayas be im not free having sjab or watsoever. wth. im fed up with sjab but yet i cant bear to leave. contradicting! =X
i miss yun sel cass xian char han sally. qian weiling sijie. qiling eileen rayner shiyin shimin joyce n 4e4s.desmond weasley kokrui kenneth. kendrick aaron wilsonchua wilsonchan alan weitang ruiliang aloy derrick n oranjees. yongqiang benny jianjie galvin jingjie cheekeong n all. manny many more too. ..i doesn't seem to be in touch with them for a logn long time.
the last time i met them was os long ago. the mighty8 outing in which i went for a while. while i was on my way to 4ts chalet. the last day in mjc. new year dat week. 4ts chalet....so long long ago.
i hate my present life. i dun like it. y must we graduate. i missed the memories in sch. i missed my frens. i miss the trchs. i missed everyone! =(


alrite. now im hating my lifestyle. i wish im in jc. i can have a cca like xian. modern dance. i wan to go to sch like cass, being cheerful n all. i wish to start studying n all. but all i can do is sit n dream. envy is all im feeling. if only i had gotten into the dance society while i was in mjc. i wld have stayed der! =X but no. i din. im jus feeling down abt everytink. everyone ard me.


im feeling so uptight. i wish to get to a beach n relax myself. scream n shout my lungs out. i wan to feel good. all i wish is for someone to be by me. by my side. stay by me. be there for me. well. fat hope. dream on. =xx my mind is still in a faraway land. i nid a kind soul to bring me bak here. wake me up to reality. i nid comfort. i nid security. i nid love. love by frens.

my so-called close frens. r they reali close? i doubt we can dare to bare our secrets out. doubt we can even confide in each other. i have yet found such a fren.. ive jus had frens whom i can tok with. chat with. have company with. play with. n all. except to confide in with.

im happy. okie. dat's such a fat fib. a sad lie. i cant feel myself happy at all. im jus so..=x empty in within. i nid sumone. sumone whom i can lean on. cry on. sob with. jus for an hour or 2 will do. i hate crying alone.the feeling is hard to bear dun u noe.

sze. im sorie to have say anytink wrong to u or watsoever. but i dun reali wish to see u giving up so easily. u are doing fine in dat course. if u reali dun like it den take up sumtink u like. at least u'll put in effort to study. the impt tink is ur interest. reali. everytink ive said aint meant to be sarcastic. if u tot it is, den i guess im wronged. dat's it. takecare. have much consideration b4 making a choice. yeps. i'll support u no matter wat ur decision is. =)

oki. venting my feelings on tis blog ain't enuff. sighs- im bak with my pillow. byes my blog.