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Wednesday, August 31, 2005


i hate u i hate u i hate u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate u!!!!!
i hate u! i hate u! i hate u! i hate u! i hate u!
i hate u! i hate u! i hate u! i hate u! i hate u!
i hate u! i hate u! i hate u! i hate u! i hate u!
i hate u! i hate u! i hate u! i hate u! i hate u!

ahhh..*sobs.
i hate u!

i dunoe y i do.
i dunoe.

y does it matters to me. y does dat affect. i dunoe.
u're jus absolutely insensitive.
hateful!
i hate u!

~ { 3:55 AM }
reflections of you and me;


Tuesday, August 30, 2005


Adapted frm frenster. well. gers ain't dat weak ba!!!! =] well, at least im not! haas.
but cant be helped at times too thou. =x


y a girl cries in front of u ?
Message: If a girl cries in front of you, it means that she couldn't take it anymore.
If you take her hand, she would stay with you for the rest of your life;
If you let her go, she couldn't go back being herself anymore.

A girl wont cry easily, Except in front of the person who she love the most, she becomes weak.
A girl wont cry easily, only when she loves you the most, she put down her ego.
Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you please hold her hands firmly, she's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.
Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you, please dont give her up, maybe bcoz of your decision, you ruin her life. When she cry rite infront of you,
When she cry bcoz of you, Look into her eyes, Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?

Think. Which other girl have cried wif pure sincerity, Infront of you, And bcoz of you?
She cry not because she is weak,
She cry not bcoz she wan sympathy or pity,
She cry, Because crying silently is no longer possible, the pain,hurt,n agony have become too big a burden to be kept inside.

Guys, Think about it, If a girl cry her heart out 2 you,
And all because of you, Its time to look back on wat u have done,
Only you will know the answer to it.
Do consider it, Coz one day, It may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say "im sorry".

~ { 11:19 PM }
reflections of you and me;


Friday, August 26, 2005


ah yun!! next time go study ask me along ma... =xx
forget me liao rite... =x ur idol khaki here leh!!!!!
next time got weijian's stuff or news dun tell u le. =p

hais. saddened.

hmm. sumtink's wrong with him.
defintely.
absolutely.
guys cant be trusted lo.
im so so sure of dat.
well. dat's me.
once bitten twice shy.

wad the hell.
wadever.

sumtinks that kaiyi said made me enlightened.
i mean. realised.
i dun feel guilty in any way.
jus feel sad for him.
go ahead with wadever u r doing man.
im deifintely not gonna care.

hais. haben being much in touch with kaiyi n jasmine.
n of cos ah yun, cass sel xian n gang lo.

kaiyi seems so much reserved than before.
finds it rather hard to noe wat's being hapenning recently or wadsoeva.
unlike last time.
feel that it's hard for me to say much tinks either.
=x well. wad's wrong. jus a concern word for ya. =]
takecare my darling kaixinguo..

jas lo. i feel the same way too.
finds it a little difficult to communicate with u at times.
perhaps bcos u tend to joke too much.
or play too much.
when i wanted so much to put a word in, i jus couldn't.
u jus cut short me.
hmm. izit a communication breakdown or wat?
maybe it's me.
i have lost much contact with u instead.
but..i so much tot dat u cld be my confidante.
well. i noe u cld be.
haas. u must reali study hard kkie.
im reali worrying for u.
=]. sorie if it becums an additional stress on u.
but still. must study hard la.
dunoe anytink. can ask me.
i'll try my beli best to help u, regardless of my busy schedule.
kekes. n hor. dun play too much kkie.
go out pls ask permission.
lols. =p.
*huggs. my sweetie cute ger.

*diary -misses. xp.

~ { 2:46 PM }
reflections of you and me;


Monday, August 15, 2005


diary--

ive cried. =] yeps.
felt much better.

haas. im crazy in my mind.
fine. =]

ive a super sweet song.
nice. =] wan it get frm me thru msn ba.

it's called "ai de tian shi"
meaning love angels. xp.

i love hugs.
dunoe why too.
hmm.
i missed shan's hug.
so filled with warmth n love n care n concern.
ya. =] thanks shan.
i guess i do look a little down during dance dat day.
thanks jeanie n amy. i noe ur care. =]
not to worry.
im perfectly fine! =]
it's a tough time ahead for tis coming week.
strive on my sweeties.
we'll work together.


diary - u too. xp. *huggs.

~ { 12:19 AM }
reflections of you and me;



love angel. my angel?

jus feel like crying. a tear or two will do.
but i cant.
y dun i seem to cry at the rite time always.
hais.
wad's wrong with me.
i cant exactly pinpoint my problem.

am i worrying?
am i sad?
or am i jus stressed up?
wadever...

i feel apart frm myself.
der's distance between me n myself.

dunoe wad im toking abt either. =x
sobs. breaking apart...
im crazy i guess.
xp.

diary. lites out for u ---- *nite.huggs

~ { 12:09 AM }
reflections of you and me;


Saturday, August 13, 2005


tinking bak to my bday. 5aug05

guess i had a pretty nice n fun day. =]

4aug05, thurs
was making crepes n rushing my project the nite b4 at shulay's hse..
was in her room doing project when the whole grp of them came in [huishan, amy, jeanie, shulay, jasmine, adelina n sengkwang].
haas. with a cheese cake n MnMs on top of it.
lols. quite a hilarious cake but it's so sweet!. =]
pretty nice cake though.
after dat went bak to rushing project.
later on went to help them out at doing the crepes.
we reali spent loads of effort in it sia.
den got so tired. i took a rest n slept.
haas. too tired le.

5aug05, fri
went to sch. carrying the damn heavy crepes. gosh.
had econs lessons. piangz. wanted to skip. but the trch pulled me bak!!!!!
gosh. he is so so so so so ultra naggy!
ultimate naggy lo.
almost quarrelled with him sia.
haas. plus jeanie so attitude with him jus cos he say that she yawn in class beli rude. wahaas. qiang!

hmm. went to set up CCN booth.
problems croped up.
always.
yeps. but nevertheless it was so so so fun.
=] kaiyi!!! wahaas. thanks for visiting me!
i love ur presents too!!! =D
kekes. it's so sweet of u..
haas. plus i love dat purple alcoholic drink.
it's super duper nice!
well. willie. the brownies u made is delicious.
thou it's a bit on the dry side.
=] i reali appreciate it a lot. n oso dat necklace.

guess wat? wahaas. my mumi n dadi n jeanie n jason n sk n gang reali made my day.
they bought me a big cake. n we shared.
even give me a bouquet of flowers lo.
kekes. plus a nice sweet jacket.
i love my gifts!
reali enjoyed thoroughly. xp.

hmm.supposed to meet benny to go xms de.
in the end plan cancelled.
supposed to meet my poly mates for steamboat dinner.
plan oso cancelled.
piangz. nv had a worse bday.
pig lo. benny still say will call me bak.
lair! bo xim. =xx
arg. nvm =]
well. stayed at home. n slept.
actually wanted to go bak to CCN.
but. reali beli tired.
so din go.
woke up at abt 8 plus.
my mum asked me why im still at home.
cos i had a hard time asking her to allow me overnite for my bday.
in which she eventually agreed.
but..now...my plans are gone. =Xxx
well. reali dun wan to spend my day at home lo!
went out after a bath.
walk ard. den kelly ask me where i am.
in the end met her up for dinner.
=] thanks to my dearest sweetest juniors.
u made my nite. xp.

later on, went over to yun's hse.
wahaas. stayed over at her place in the end.
i love her presence!!!! =]
gees..

6aug05, fri
had dance early in the morning. but din attend in the end.
cos i had to rush intHT project. shan was with me.
we worked together.
later i had to leave cos of sjab meeting.
after sjab meeting went for dance practice at aljunied again.
hmm
trained hard thou.
later on met up with sel n yun n gang at esplanade.
n noe wat!!!
qingnan made me an oreo cheese cake!!!!!!!!!!
oh gosh. my fave cake of all lo.
n gosh.
it was so damn delicious lo.
so so so so nice!!!
absolutely love it sia!
noe wat. im gonna make sure my boyfren in future can make better oreo cheese cakes than him!
lols. xp.
had real fun der.
we reali enjoyed ourselves too.
dat outing was to celebrate mine n han's bday oso. =]
again i love my gifts! kekes.

hmm. realised tis year i have yet to receive a long long wordy birthday card. =Xxx
usually will have de.
but not tis year.
well. maybe everyone's not free to write me a heartfelt bday card.
but still. im happy enuff to noe my frens rmb me =]

tired. im gone diary. =] **hapie sweet 17th bday -diary-

~ { 1:32 AM }
reflections of you and me;


Wednesday, August 10, 2005


MY Own Unique Horosope Reading. =]
You do everything on a grand scale and seek to have at least two of everything. Perhaps you had a financially insecure childhood. Maybe flamboyant relatives overshadowed you. Whatever the circumstances of your upbringing, they prompted you to become an outstanding success. Fighting your way to the top comes naturally to you.
Fun-loving people with a dash of flair have a special hold on your heart. Ariens, Leos, Librans, and Sagittarians have a lot in common with you. As far as your love life is concerned, you need a partner who isn't afraid to take risks. With the support of a loving mate, you can accomplish anything you desire. You need to have someone in your corner.
You have a strong artistic streak that could net you a fortune. Selling handmade items is a good possibility for you, as you like to put a personal stamp on everything you do. There's a good chance you will integrate nature's bounty into your work. Running a health food store, flower shop, or gardening service are among the ways you may make a living. You will probably market your wares to high-end clients; an air of exclusivity characterizes everything you do. Eventually, you could even launch your own line of luxury products.
Romance is important to you, although work can get in the way of your love life. At some point, you may have to choose between your personal and public lives. You may decide to take time off to raise your children. Such a decision could add an exciting new dimension to your life. Caring for young people fills a deep need within you. Whether you realize it or not, you're a very nurturing person.

Your greatest challenge is to scale back work for the sake of love. Although you are capable of great things on the career front, it's more important to build up a loyal circle of friends. Your biggest strength is your caring heart. If you obey its instincts, you'll never go wrong.

~ { 10:29 AM }
reflections of you and me;


Thursday, August 04, 2005


..thanks for dat
benny. thanks. =]
ur assurance made me feel better.
ya. u'll be my best fren. always. xp
=] thanks a lot.

guess ive been rather on my nerves these days.
=x apologies if ive made anyone fed up with me.
hais.. im oki
yea. reali oki.

ya bak to project.
diary. im gonna get bak to proj. wipe away my tears n bak to real work le. =]

~ { 12:09 AM }
reflections of you and me;


Wednesday, August 03, 2005


eeps. i dun like ur. reali dun like lo. =xx
hais. dun wan celebrate den dun wan. no big deal.
i have gotten use to not the un-warmth feeling in tis family.
ive nv felt real happiness in here either.
it's like an empty shell dat acts like a shelter for me oni.
ONLY.

coming up with excuses is useless.
moreover excuses dat says:
"i busy with 7th month, no time buy cake. no nid celebrate"
alrite. fine! wadever lo.

celebrate for wat!
dat phrase has been ringing thru my head.
oki. i mind a lot.
i reali do mind a lot.
i mean. it's so damn unfair.
y do the older i get, the more u dun wan to celebrate my bday.
whereas, the older i get, the more i wan to celebrte my bday with ur.

y must the older the child gets, the lesser love she gets frm her family.
the more outcast she'll feel.
the less care n concern she'll get.
y...

i dun feel like the older child.
not at all.
never at all.

where's all the tinks u promised me.
u nv made it.
neither did u try to make true ur promise.
u nv tried.
y make me empty promises.
dat's hateful.
i detest u.

my sis got her bday present. mp3.
u din even buy dat for me.
n u said u'll buy an apply ipod for me instead.
nah. dat's another white lie.
again! AGAIN!
im jus so sure u wun buy it
so so so sure.
yep. n im rite.

jus let me recall bak when's the last present u ever gave me.
hmm.
well. guess it's bak during my rpiamry sch days
where i had held onto tis educational toy u gave me.
thou it wasn't at all expensive.
wat matters most was the tot dat counts.
=] i love dat toy.
dat even till tis day, im still keeping it, thou it has rusted n spoilt.

but. wat abt u.
i gave u a heart pendant last yr.
where izit now.
gone. spoilt by didi.
i gave u flowers tis year.
u actually threw it into the dustbin.
i oni noe it when i saw it with my very own eyes.
where's all the cards dat i wrote n draw for u.
even if im so damn busy with my work,
i stil fork out time to do such thotful stuff for u.
wat did u do to dem.
u threw dem
leave dem ard
didi went to draw dem, tear dem.
wadeva!
n they were thrown away in the end.

ever tot how i feel.
among all siblings, im very sure
so so so sure.
im the oni totful one.
but.
u nv appreciate dem.
u NV!
u noe how hurtful dat was.
how much it actually saddens me.
u might tink i dun care abt such stuff.
but in fact. i dO!
i mind a lot abt such tinks.

does results all dat matters to u.
why do u trust ar mei so much more.
jus cos of dat darn sheet of result paper
wat the hell.
i can draw more of such result paper for u.
drawn with A* on it too
if dat's all u ever wanted so much.
u r uncaring.
untotful.
inconsiderate.
hateful.

u made me feel so inferior in tis family.
made me feel as if im nothing to u.
u said dat to me b4.
"without u in tis family, i oso dun care. i still have 4 other worthy siblings whom i can fall bak upon!"
heys. u said dat oki.
im so so sure.
dat sentence was imprinted in my memory ever since den.
n it was said after a stinging slap frm ur darn hand.
i so much wanted to return dat slap bak.
so much wanted to!
but i respected u.
wat abt u.
u dun.
u dun oki!

even daddy dun too.
both of u a the same kind.
dunoe why the hell u born me out for.
a playing tool
ya wadeva.

wadever stuff u jus gave to ar mei.
wadever qns u have u always approach her 1st
wadever stuff or happenings going in the family, im always the last to noe abt it
ALWAYS the LAST!
even the maids noe it earlier den me.
look.
it's so ironic.
mothers are the best in the world.
haas. dat's crap
best cos they managed to suffer that amount of pain during child-bearing?
hur. rubbish.

im so utterly disappointed.
sadden by u..
freak out.

diary. give me another family. wiill u?. i nid love. care. n warmth.

~ { 11:09 PM }
reflections of you and me;


Tuesday, August 02, 2005


gosh. life has been hectic these days. real busy sia. =x
got enuff of projects. it seems to be a never-ending stream of work.. .. ..
=xx. having headache sia.
hmm... pain*

=] went out with willie ytd. hmm watch "my brother". damn touching lo...xp
so so so sad story. gosh.
well. guess i was rather a bore. x= sorie*
took photos after dat. =]

hmm. went out with jeremy today.
=] thx for dat treat. watch "bug me not".
quite a cute show =p
the guy is so so so cute!! xp
hmm. went home after dat.
too tired to walk ard. furthermore i hv so much more projects to complete.
xp....... sorie wor..

gotta rest sia...
will be busy these whole week.. so much projects..
projects projects projects!!!
gosh.. it's wrecking me out.
hmm. must keep a positive view.
=x i'll do better!.
canot say im stress, otherwise i;ll gonna be reali stress.
=] haas. my saying.
*lame.
love blogging.
i can convey my tots on it.
my all-time listener.
haas.
xp

shan: love ya daddy! u gotta takecare. stay strong. u have ur nu-er's support always de.
amy: mummy! *muaks. =p smiles!!! takecare.
jeanie: my best buddy!! make a gud decision wor. dun regret sia. =] u'll have all of our support. smile more! u look at ur best when u smiles. *huggs.


jas: miss ya so so so so so much!!! wish to see ya soon!!! d= all the best for tis fri's parade. jiayou kkie!!! n... better start studying for ur prelims hor!!!!!!!!!!!! no failures!. xp i noe u can do it de kkie!.

sze: how have u been? been a long while ever since i last chatted with ya. hhmmm. working ba? lols. bet u miss me loads rite? haas. xp *huggs. takecare my darling ger!! miss ya so so much! =p

wilson: erzi!!!! waseh. reali miss u sia!! hmm. so how ur studies le? got study ma.. canot disappoint ur mummy wor!! i dun wan to go ard hougang n sengkang area pei u find schs to sign dat recruitment form le wor! haas =p hope to cya !! takecare. *muaks.

cass: CASS ONG! haas. cant wait to see u on sat. miss ya so much!!!! =D it's been long since we saw each other. better take photo this sat. =] cyA!
yun: ar yun!!! my dearest ar yun! haas. miss me ba? i noe de. kekes. so excited! gonna c u all on sat. wait for me wor. cos i gonna be rather late. i'll be having my dance practice!!! x= sorie abt it wor.
sel: mummy!! my long-long-nv-see sweetie mummy! haas. *huggs!!!!! been such a long while since we last saw each other!!. well. cya on sat den!
xian: my super skinny pretty daddy! wahaas. how have u been den. u're reali one of those i've seldom see for a long long long long time!!. relai miss u so.. hmm. cya on sat den. *huggs!!
char: =] thou we same sch, but still we seldom see each other. except during occassional meet-ups on bus 27. lols. reali miss the times we shared our tots n chatted together. haas. cya too! xp
han: my soft-spoken god-mummy! how r u?? haas. it's been an even longer time since i last saw u. hope to see ya tis sat ya?? *muaks!!!!
sally: well well well. my loud-spoken bravo fren! =D haas. nv fails to brings us laughter thou. lols. hope to cya too! *huggs.

i miss my project-free days. =X

diary. i miss u too. xp dun miss me out either.

~ { 9:18 PM }
reflections of you and me;


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