suddenly i felt so empty.
as if a strong force has been engulfing me from in within.
causing me to be void of feelings momentarily.
i felt so insecure.
the security i used to have
seems to disappear in a spilt second.
the warmth i used to have around me
seems to have evaporated into thin air.
the love i used to have
doesnt seem to be the same.
no longer the same.
is this a process?
or is it an end?
if it's a process, i hope its a happy ending.

dok. the phone hung.
yet again.
i so much tot u wld tok to me.
so much wan u to tok to me.
anytink.
reali anytink.
jus hearing ur voice assures me.

i am so unlucky.
so damn unlucky.
fuck.
damn irritated as days passed.
lost my hp.
n now my ezlink.
wad again?
had cold wars on n off.
tis is the worst.

but all i wanted to do.
is jus take a long walk
alone.
wishing u'll be ard me.
but i noe its impossible.
cos im bak home now.
n my wishes din come true.
the walk did me some gud
at the least it calmed me down
from the terrible sobs i suffered.

wad abt now.
i dunoe.
i wish sumone cld understand me.
but no one seems to be able to.
no one.
dun even noe how im feeling.

suddenly i wish to run home.
away frm all.
away frm crowd.
jus wanted all the attention i cld get.
how well sum ppl can understand me.