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Tuesday, May 30, 2006


gonna get my aunt to pass me the mango cake recipe.
made it once for yun's bday b4.
but forget recipe le =xx
i wan to leanr to bake more cakes
definitely nicer ones!
den i'll let kaiyi, mighty8, jas n sock they all try.
hehe. n of cos my darling! =]

i wan to learn more cooking! =]

i managed to cook a decent meal of pasta for my baobei leh!
LOLs.
n oso a meal of fried rice with boiled potatoes as side dish.
he say nice lo! =]
not to please me k.
he said it sincerely.
hehe.

i miss u my dear diary =X lols.

~ { 5:29 PM }
reflections of you and me;



..dots.
got so not nice meh.
i dun tink so lo.
probably they made it wrongly ba.
wadeva lo.
hais.
shld have bake it myself instead.
nvm. forget abt it.
wun do any of such for them le.
doesnt seem to appreciate anyway.

~ { 5:18 PM }
reflections of you and me;


Tuesday, May 16, 2006


im reali glad
i have so super gud frens
super caring frens.
yun. xian sel.
KAIYI. shulay. jasmine chen. =]
yisze. samantha.
huishan. amy. jeanie. jasmine. beeyan. sk. dennis
kelly.
liangyou. nanshun.

im reali glad u all were there to be by me
when i needed someone to be there.
i noe im rather horrible during these times..
sorie if ive hurt anyone.
it wasnt on purpose.
sorie sze. sorie samantha.
sorie if i made u guilty.
even till tis moment.
i was jus feeling so silly.
it was at a moment of folly dat i did it.
still, i jus wan to let u noe.
it wasnt ur fault at all.
even if u din give it to me.
ill still be able to get it thru other means.
so. im sorie ger.

yun. thanks for lending me ur place to do the cake.
=]. reali glad.
thanks for the support.

thanks for pei me go kbox to vent.
jas. =] thanks.

kaiyi.
no worry.
=] everytinks fine.
ill apologise for the past misunderstandings.
i guess u do feel a little hurt.
sorie for that.
ive tried hard to struggle the mixed feelings n thoughts in within me.
but now everytink is cleared up.
its fine.
hush ger,
dun cry le. =]

i'll nv be able to thank enuf.
im so so lost for words.
im reali touched that i do have a wonderful bunch of frens by my side.
be it a little concern or alot.
im a lucky ger.
one who is being showered by lots of care n concern.
i noe.
cos i felt it.
felt it frm all of u. =]
be it a sweet encouraging sms.
be it accompanying me the whole day.
or perhaps a few hours.
be it sitting with me on the swing side by side.
be it looking at me baking the cake.
be it chatting with me on phone.
be it the silence we had.
above all. i feel the care.
feel the love frm my frens,
=] im glad.

i might not have the full support.
but at least i do have some.
n i blive.
blive i'll nv make the wrong choice again tis time.
im sure im rite,

he's the one for me.
he'll love only me.
i'll love only him.
i noe it.
i blive in it.
cos..
its my instincts again.
woman's instincts.
=]

~ { 11:00 PM }
reflections of you and me;



=] we're fine.
finally.
im reali hapie.
so happie.
dat im in tears now.
im reali tired.
cos i reali did try very hard to get bak tis relationship.
im glad i din give up.
so so glad.
im glad he still has me in his heart.
only me.
ONLY ME! =]]

thou the hurt is still there.
i blive time, his love n frens care will let those hurt fade away..
=]
i trust my instincts.
woman's instincts is always right. =]

im so so glad my efforts paid off.
even thou the cake i made for him failed for the 1st time.
thou he din even wan to accept my gift for him initially.
thou he said he dun wan to see me at all.
thou he said he wanted to be alone.
thou he said words so harsh it left a scar on me.
thou he made me cry.
im still glad.
super glad.
ultra glad.
we're still together.
we are.
we are. =]]

i noe he love me still.
he still does.
i noe he wun bear to leave me.
he came bak.
i noe he miss me.
he did miss me.
i noe he lied abt the pub ger.
well he reali did!
=] there again i said.
woman's instincts are always rite.

i love my darling to bits n pieces.
my baobei.
my world.
my DARDAR! =]
muaks*

~ { 10:50 PM }
reflections of you and me;


Sunday, May 14, 2006


Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
Cuz baby I can't sleep
i really love u dardar.
don't u too?

~ { 11:22 AM }
reflections of you and me;


Saturday, May 13, 2006


the 1st breakup hurts.
but tis time round it hurts more.
cos i lost my world. my life.
u came so quickly.
yet leave so suddenly.
it came in a total surprise for me.
too big a blow.
i reali cant take it.
i dun understand y.

to be cheated for 6 mths..
not a clue. not a hint.
not i reali dunoe which part of ur words were the truth.
which were the lies.
my heart aches.
aches so much i cldnt get myself to slp.
had to force myself smiling at those customers with those red blotchy eyes of mine.
was reali touched.
reali touched to see kaiyi yun n xian who came to look for me
i reali dunoe wad to do if they werent there.
i wun noe how to handle it.

the feeling is too immense.
it happened too fast.
n u were too determined.
wad has gone wrong.
called u a million times thru the whole nite.
sms u a thousand times thru the whole nite.
neither do i receive an sms reply nor a return call.
does ignorance helps?

we're in 2 different worlds. we dun suit each other.
u said tis.
den y bother to start rite from the beginning?
i did try to compromise.
i din break any promises at all
listened to u..
wad abt u.
broke all promises.
shattered my heart.
n yet left saying u dun wish to cause me anymore hurt.
saying to treat u as the bad guy.
saying u love me no more.

the ache jus build up.
the burden jus pile up.
my tears jus flow.
no matter how hard i tried to restrain.

ive nv loved anyone dat hard b4.
nv love anyone dat much b4.
u taught me how to be in a serious relationship.
but wad u din taught me is.
how to be out of a serious relationship.
n now u're leaving me alone.
alone to fend for myself.
tinking dat by smsing my frens to takecare of me does help.
it doesnt.
the hurt still remains.
no less. but more.
i noe u do love me still.
y deny.
it hurts me most when u said it to me thru phone.
as if thousands needles were pricking my heart.
as if a thunderbolt has struck thru.

ive nv felt crazier than b4.
nv cld imagine myself smoking.
but i did.
cried hard while doing it.
cos i wan to noe.
wads so gud abt smoking dat u almost gave me up for the 1st breakup.
it was heartbreaking my dear.

if u had told me u cldnt quit smoking from the start
it'll be oki with me.
reali..
cos i detest promises to be broken.
u too isn't it?
den y break promises u made to me?

wads hurts me most is.
u went to pub.
n noe a ger.
n yet went out with her.
so wads abt the booasting saying u nv meet gers.
n complaining abt how i have to always get in touch with guys.
how crap dat can be.
definitely a heart-wrenching news.

memories jus flooded my mind.
the raining days while waiting for a cab.
the bicycle ride.
my first hug.
my first kiss.
my first valentine's day.
my first bouquet of flowers.
the candlelight dinner.
the sparklers.
the candles competition.
the neoprints.
the first time u taught to to drink.
the first time we swim together.
the day i was sick n u took gud care of me.
how we get together.
how u held my hands n say "no matter wad happens we wun break. nothing. absolutely nothing"
the day u brought the 1000pieces jigsaw puzzle to my hse but till now left undone.
the day we wore a tshirt n shorts down to hougang mall to buy apples for grandma n u said we look like we r a married couple who are going to the nearest supermarket to buy some necessities, n u said we looked so sweet n loving, so cute u said.
rmbered how i always buy a pkt of green mint sweets for u to help u quit smoking.
rmb the day u told me happily dat. u decided to quit smoking.
rmb the day suddenly u tell me u smoke bak, n yet later u say u quit.
rmb how u taught me n train me not to be afraid of tickles.
the first card u made for me.
how u wld always buy chocs to make me happy.
how fat we grow under each other's influences n care for each other's proper meals.
the 2 pair of earrings u bought for me. so damn ex.
the day we shared a bottle of alcohol each on cab to my hse.
how u laughed at the "I Love U" colourful DIY curtain i made for u n u said it was like a windchime, so noisy.
the times u taught me how to sing.
u taught me to finish all meals clean, not even a speck of rice.
helped me rearrange my room.
help me to paint my hse.
the days we maple together.
our fantasies on travelling. saying u will bring me to genting, thailand n more.
u saying i will surely be ur wife. n u said to trust u.
i wanted to.
but i wonder if i can still hope for dat.

probably the only barrier now is wad ur mind is tinking of now.
y not follow ur heart.
wldnt u be happier dat way?
i followed my heart.
n dats y.
dats y i din give up.
not even till tis moment,
not even after all the hurts n aches.
not even after u ignore me
n only acknowledge me as merely a fren.
not even after all u said to me.
i still perserve.
i din give up.
i tried hard.
wad abt u?
put in some effort will u?
im trying hard.
but its tired.
having to handle all these.
i need u. cos i love u.
u r my life. my world. my everytink darling.
im not going to care wadeva tinks u have done in the past.
let's start anew alrite?
a new beginning.
a sweet story with no ending.
lets forget abt the tinks dat has happened.
im willing to do it.
wad abt u?
i'll be waiting.
waiting till the day u wake up.
n realised u do nid me.
nid me cos u love me.
wun ever leave me again.
wun ever lie or bluff to me again.
will love only me.
whereby the special place in ur heart i stay forever.
whereby no one can share tis special seating of mine in ur heart.
no one, only me.
i'll still be waiting my dear.
i'll keep in contact with u everyday.
but hopefully u will reply.

but if one day i din sms u.
probably i nid u at that moment,
jus spend a few minutes to call me will u?
perhaps sumtink big has happened dat i can no longer take it.
but still, i'll be waiting.
waiting for u darling.
love u loads.
miss u alot. alot alot.

~ { 11:51 PM }
reflections of you and me;



听到我的电话响了一生就暂停
会不会是你我总怀疑
因为这原因心情不稳定
我们之间的问题
是我不相信你
敏感又多心怕你变了心
因为爱你
害怕失去你
爱的天气总是阴晴不定
爱的情绪也在欢笑中哭泣

~ { 5:38 AM }
reflections of you and me;



时间一分一秒向前走
心却在你的城市里
身边虽然没有你
可是我有勇气
我不会放弃

~ { 3:33 AM }
reflections of you and me;



here i am.
who stood up strong agst ur mum.
when she's agst us.
who was once the barrier to our relationship.
wad abt u now.
why cant u overcome the barrier now.
when u r the one.
the barrier to our relationship now.

~ { 3:30 AM }
reflections of you and me;



Jan:
I love you!

Ken:
You love me!

Jan & Ken:
We are happy family!
With a great big hug (*HUGGS*)
and a kiss from me to you (*MUAKS*)

Jan:
Won't you say you love me too?

Ken:
I love you!

Jan:
You love me!

Ken & Jan:
We are happy family!
With a great big hug (*HUGGS*)
and a kiss from me to you (*MUAKS*)

Ken:
Won't you say you love me too?

Jan:
I love you!

isn't tis our song?.. our very own song..

~ { 3:23 AM }
reflections of you and me;



Trust the love inside of you.
Have faith in our destiny.
忽然很想你
你未完成的爱情
那天你说有一种爱值得一起努力
我的心天天在等你
给我未完成的记忆
想念是我们的限时信
也给了爱情氧气

~ { 3:18 AM }
reflections of you and me;


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