Day 3, 19jun06
woke up in the morn.
n the 1st tot on my mind was no doubt him.
was imagining he might appear in my hse suddenly
to surprise me.
but. im dreaming i guess.
tears streamed again.
tears r uncontrollable.
i realise.

hurriedly took a bath to feel more refreshed.
stared in the mirror.
looking at the new me.
the weird me.
the ugly me.
fringed with the short ugly hair.

got out of hse to go sentosa for project.
suddenly i wish my very gud buddy beside me.
one who will give me a big cuddly warm hug.
whose shoulders i can lean on n pour out woes out loud.
i nid to vent my feelings.
the bottled feelings made me feel more hurt.

finished everytink at abt 1pm.
went to lavender in search of the item alone.
cldnt find the one i wan.
travelled to ps.
n got lost on the way.
finally got to ps.
n i manage to find the item i waanted to find.
bought it n left ps.

heading towards hougang.
images of him n me floated abt.

met sze n samantha
they pei me tok
later my mum msg me.
i was touched.
i noe she cares.
but
i reali cant bear to forget him.
cant bear to give up on him.
thou i noe
im still holding on to a very thin line to our very last hope of reconciling.
i'll let him go.
reali i'll let him go.
but i cant give up.
i'll wait.
i can wait.
wait for the very day where u'll love me again.
love me once again.
that'll be the day we can create newer yet sweeter memories that'll belong to only u n me.
no one else, but us.

i'm blinded by love.
nope im not.
im not silly.
not stupid.
not immature.
i jus wanted to stay strong to my belief in love.

we drank beer.
i downed a can.
but i wasnt drunk.
thou i wish i was.
only got a lil dizzy.
n dats all.

i'll keep waiting.
till the day u'll understand my feelings.
till the day my feelings got reciprocated.
i noe i wun be alrite.
i wun be fine.
but i'll be strong.
strong till the day u find me bak.
as long as i hv u by my side,
i noe we can ovecome everytink.