i felt so outcasted.
so ostracised.
by..
my family.
the damn grp of ppl ive been living under a roof for probably near 18 yrs.
a horrid life ive led.
when's the last time u heard ur parents praising u?
most of u will say forget.
but u're alreadi better off.
cos ive nv heard!
probably cos it wasnt my mum who took care of me while im an infant
it was my aunt.
my aunt who dote on me much more.
ive always wanted to feel family warmth.
family love.
but it has always lived in my fantasies.
a fantasy dat will nv be true.
am i even part of the so-called 'family'?
the house is just like a hotel for me.
a place i wouldnt wan to stay long for.
it's a living hell for me.
i hate it here.
but u.
it was bcos of u dat make me feel much better when at home.
made me feel loved.
without u.
i wouldn't noe where i'll be.
what i'll be like.
but..
i....................................