im so glad.
i felt as if the dark clouds had partly dispersed.
rite after i ended my call with yun.
i had such a sudden urge.
a hope to hear his voice.
cos i missed it.
reali miss him.
i took my hp n dialed his numbers.
i used my hp cos i wan him to noe it's me whose calling.
n not use my hse phone whereby it'll show up as a private call.

im so glad i did.
i tot i'll be disappointed again.
with the call ending as 'pls leave a msg after the tone'
but it din.
instead i heard him.
heard his voice.
alas! =]

thou he's quiet.
thou he sounded rather sianz.
but its oki.
at least he answer me when i tok.

n i realise.
i might not be celebrrating his bday together with him le.
a might. n a might not.
hais.
he'll decide n let me noe. he said.

hung up the phone.
cos he prefer to tok to me thru msn.
quite upset.
cos i reali wanted to tok to him.
n hear his voice.
but well..
went online.
hurriedly deleted my nick n display pic.
but all we chatted was..

Ah_Ken says:
ya..
// jAn`\\* says:
ya
Ah_Ken says:
i msg u later.
Ah_Ken says:
i o something first
// jAn`\\* says:
??
// jAn`\\* says:
kk

rather disappointing.
cos i reali wanted to chat with him.

but again.
i suddenly receive his sms!
there was tis tinge of happiness growing in me.
covered the msg with my fingers.
slowly revealing the contents.
'Sorry ar. I testing something out with ah di.'
dats all he said.
but its enuff to make me feel better.
cos hving dat msg shows he cares abt me.
abt how i feel.
he's afraid i'll wait long.
somehow the msg sounded sweet to me.
in a way or another.
very sweet. =]