im reali tired
tired of repeating the same tinks over n over again to get u to understand
to remind u n all.
reali tired n disappointing.
haven the tot of me struck ur mind at all?
or does my life jus play such a minor role in ur luxurious life now at doha?
doesnt the tot of me worrying.
de tot of ur family worrying for u hit u?
no brain waves?
still in de midst of enjoying dun u.

wads all de crap abt trying ur best to contact me.
where ur effort.
i absolutely dun see dat at all.
try harder with sum other excuses.

yes. im angry.
fed up!
fucking disappointed.

y shld i concern u so much
when u din in de least even send me a word of comfort
when i pour my woes to u thru those 'betwwen sobs' sms.
nah. not even a short utter of 'how r u sweet?'

ur making me tear daily bcos of u
all bcos of u.
y does loving u
suddenly makes me feel im like a clown.
going so gaga over everytink for u
worrying here n there.
wishing n hoping
praying everyday's fine for u
wishing no one's bullying u
hoping no one's out to cheat u

u dun understand how i feel at all
i wish i cld leave u alone
all alone with alone u to fend for urself
i cant do it.
no will. no heart.
its heartbreaking
heart tearing.

crying between sobs isnt my idea of missing u
it was nv my idea of missing u.
but u made me so worried.
im paranoid.
probably.
but u din give me de security nor assurance i shld have frm u.

u'll nv read tis
i noe it.
u nv care for me well enuf to rmb my blog.
to rmb i do still blog at times to vent my frustrations i had.
to find a talking fren via my blog.

i felt as if im breaking apart.
its difficult to cheer up during de day
n let my emotions fill me at nite.
the immense feelings left me nowhere.
nowhere to hide.
6 days of tears

wishing u were more responsible.
wishing u will start tinking for others.
be a lil more thoughtful.

im reali disappointed.
utterly upset with u.