the darkest fears engulfed me.
the horrible nitemares haunt me nite after nite.
my heart aches for u.
the heartaches kept persisting.
the tears kept falling.
the saddest thoughts kept racing thru my mind.
my vision blurred.

has my nitemare came thru?

its de 4th time im hearing tis.
'i wanna be alone'

it's de umpteen time u broke ur promises.
but i dun care.

so long u treasure me still.
so long u love me still.
all tinks cld be solved.
was dat naive?
i dun tink so.

its ur toughness
ur so called mature tinking dat leds to tis situation.
ur damn ego.

u caused me terrible hurt u promised u wun do again
u caused me sobs where de tears nv seemed to stop

its gone my dear.
jus by wad u jus said.
wad u jus given up.

there will nv be a nxt time.
i noe it deep down.
i wldnt wan to have u when u dumped me so cruelly 4 times.

u caused me hurt dat no one in de world can
u make me cry an ocean for u by breaking my heart
u make me love u so much. yet dump me aside time after time.

all thanks to u.
i learnt to be stronger.
thanks to u my darling.
i learnt lots frm u.
yes. u r great
u r fabulous.
during de times u treasured me loved me cared for me.
the times we shared were de happiest moments in my life.
amidst de frequent quarrels we had.
we were still good to each other.
guess de good times are over.

i reali love u my dear darling.
u dun regret ur decision.
hur.
sounds like i shld rmeind myself too.
last hugs n kisses.
make it a virtual one den.
cos de last hug we had were when u left spore.
de last reluctant tug on u when u left.
the last sweetest kiss we had before bidding a goodbye
n hope to see u soon kiss.

alas.
i found my strength within me.
a strength dat picked me up frm where i fell.
n to walk out of de life dat was once filled with u.
im proud of myself.
im proud.
i wish i was proud.