'wads wrong now'
i wish to shout tis in ur face.
probably given u a few shakes n push.
im totally fed up with u.
upset with u.
utterly disappointed in u.

its not de first time.

are u a maniac.
deriving joy frm hurting me.
disappointing me.

wads de point of apologising when u noe it frm de start u shldnt hv done.
wad does sorry means to u.
does it even mean anytink to u.

wheres the trust i had painstakingly built up between us two.
in between my months of sobbing
tears of hurt
bawling out loud frm sadness
is our love reali dat vulnerable.

u said im different now
wad abt u.
who's reali de different one
how do u wan me to react to tis kinda attitude

y do u always hurt me
n end up i hv to pacify u
comfort u
console u in de end

is tis how u shld realli treat me
ask urself
do i reali deserve tis kinda attitude or treatment frm u
im ur baobei u noe
im ur baobei

y do u break my heart again n again
y hurt me again n again
y ignore me again n again
y avoid me again n again
y apologise to me again n again

i can feel de distance between us again
de distance which i tried so hard to pull close before.
was it reali all dat true
a broken glass couldnt be pieced bak together.

all i wanted was to be the one closest to u
yet u made me feel
im de last person u'll ever wan to be close to

do u reali love me.
am i doubting u or myself.
im clueless

are we breaking apart again.