each nite before i cld finally fell aslp
each morning when im conscious
the last thot
the first thot
was always u
has always been u
is always u.

the heavy-heartedness is hard to bear.
it jus makes tears fall down my cheeks.
dats jus how i fell aslp n end my day every nite.
dats jus how i wake up to a new day every morning.

how dumb was i to trust u.
how stupid was i to believe ur every words.
when i was even cheated 4 times before by u.

i cant believe it.
was my love for u too great.
or was it ur glib tongue.
or was it bcos i was simply too naive.

im pretty sure its a slap i'll give it to u the next time i chance upon u.
so.
jus back off.
coward.

forever going under covers.
always avoiding n ignoring me.
reali doubt if ya a real guy.
irritating.
u ought not to deserve me.
u dun deserve any love frm anyone at all.
selfish.