im feeling so afraid.
the feeling of constant fear.
the dreadful intuition.

it seems like it aint gonna last afterall.
as each quarrel we had
every unhappiness suffered
all tears i shed
seemingly drawing us towards the end.

its not wad i wan
its certainly not wad u wan as well.
but it seems like the end is no where far.

surely one day.
tinks shall get out of hand.
patience has its limits.
tolerance too.
jus dun hit on me too soon.

i still do wanna salvage it.
im reali trying.
held bak my temper.
swallowed my pride.
tot abt ur plight.
understand how u felt.
bit on my tongue to stop unwanted rants.
still, efforts were to no avail.

ive being scarred.
dat left me so jaded ever since.
u'll nv understand my plight ever.
each time u ask me y im so unhappy.
its hard to describe my feel u noe.
no words cld be used.
i simply felt helpless.
n plainly fearful for both of us.
my mind jus wandered off to de bad thots.

no no.
i pulled myself away.
practically dragged myself away.
de tears welled up.
many a times i almost wanted to give up.
for i dun wanna scar myself again.
still i perserve.
cos i blive.
trust.
n love.
my dearest.

can there ever be deeper understanding between us two?
the answer lies between us.